If you saw my last post, I felt disconnected yesterday which made the grounding meditation a little difficult. I tried it again today and was able to get through it much better. Instead of a cord connecting to the ground I imagined a trash shoot down my spine and went through my body and thoughts with a shovel and just dumped everything down the trash shoot. Then I tore apart the trash shoot. It was a step in the right direction with becoming connected to myself again. I often times feel disconnected from myself. Almost as if I live outside of my body and it kind of leaves me disoriented. I struggle to stay in the present. I think after years of depression, I learned to dissociate from my reality because I didn’t like my reality. Now I’m trying to get back to myself. These meditations have really helped. Slowly I am finding my way back. Has anyone else had this experience?

Feet in grass!!!

https://youtu.be/gJd1nvOHdI4?si=ZVnxGJUOpWj-mIoa

I’ve been doing my daily RPMs but I’ve been avoiding the journaling - here to say I’m back to showing up for myself even when I don’t fuckin want to. Here I am. I got here. I’ve been using the breathing techniques when I’m listening to other people tell me things I don’t want to vibe with. I was a breath holder so the counting satisfies some OCD maybe but the real shift is that I’m getting better at the exhale: the release of the Fucks. 🐒 just when I think I have zero to give I discover another cave filled with them guarded by a dragon that just wants to be my Friend 🐉 ☮️ ❤️.

Roots down y'all!