Hey, Y'all, hope everyone has been doing well. I know I have been radio silent these past couple of weeks, but for good reason. Allow me to update y'all on what's been going on: Since I last spoke with @Paul Benjamin and the rest of the guys on Zoom, I transferred departments at the company I work at (moved from Inside Sales to working out on the warehouse floor) and couldn't be happier with this choice. My tasks are straight forward and fairly simple, and I feel accomplished completing them. The best part is, unlike sales, the work does not follow me home, which is heavenly. The hours and pay are awesome as well. I work 50-60 hours in the warehouse and can cover all of my expenses while still throwing the extra money into savings/investments/charity/fun spending. Since work doesn't affect my personal time anymore, I know have 10-20 hours a week I devote to studying/recertifying as a Personal Trainer and going through @Paul Benjamin's modules. I'll be certified in 2-3 months; once I have that, I already know where I'll need to apply to acquire a job that will give me the best opportunity to build 1 on 1 training experience with clients (I spoke with several successful personal trainers I know in my area about where to start). Next, I have also had several discussions with my MMA/Boxing coach about future business plans with him, and learning his craft so I can not only condition his fight guys, but also become proficient enough to have me as a coach (This will help me long term because I want to eventually specialize as a trainer of combat athletes). Here is what my weekdays have been looking like: 4-5 AM: Study PT 5-6 AM: Get ready for work 7-5 PM: Work 6:30-8:30: Combat Training, Church classes, or Free Mason practice (Depends on the Day) 9:30-10 PM: Bed Time (If earlier, even better) Saturdays I'll either work Overtime till 5, or if I have social plans already set, I'll take the day off and do those.

So I have a plate/ltr its been about 6 months and the sex has been pretty fucking good. She always orgasms several times and even goes into some a deep out of body type of psychedelic experience. Recently she has cried twice and I read about it and there are some negatives and in my case because the relationship is relatively healthy and there isn't any toxicity, I believe it's a very fast high/low mood change after an intense orgasm that causes this. @Paul Benjamin I wanted to get your expert take on the subject and learn more about this. and of course if anyone would like to share their experience with this. I bet Laurent probably has some interesting story like this in his back pocket. O.k To be clear this is not bawling, snot bubble crying, it's like tears of joy or something.

Picture this, you get the confirmed close off of dating app but its not gonna happen for another 5+ days, how do you keep it warm and not have her forget about you? Does it serve as a filter if she flakes even though I confirm the day before like Paul suggests-, or am I leaving good times on the table?

@Paul Benjamin it's recently become clear to me that my body still stores trauma from events that took place during (i.e. abruptly interrupting) sleep in my previous career that required immediate response/escape/evasion. For over a decade it has manifested as an immediate jolt of adrenaline/cortisol/anxiety the second I wake and puts me in that autonomic response mode (no flashbacks or vivid memories of any sort in those moments though). What treatment modality would you recommend to address this and teach my body that that is no longer necessary, and allow it to wake up in a peaceful and calm state instead? Self-treatment would be ideal, but results are the priority.

In the space of 48 hours, I have lost my kids and a business partner. Time to forge a new identity. Separation under Japanese law means I can be arrested if I so much as stand outside school to get a glimpse of them playing in the courtyard. I am grieving this abrupt loss. As for the business, sometimes it is better to stay in the friendzone rather than invest time, energy and money. All in all, everything happens for the best. I start with a blank slate. I am becoming the hero I am dreaming of. I am now writing the next chapters of my life. It is time to empty my cup, let go of the bagage and reset. I am grateful the wife pulled the plug as opposed to 6 years later. It would have been tougher to rebuild. I am grateful things did not work out with this business project. Something else will be calling. It all starts from being intentional, getting clarity. There is no better place than this old Japanese thermal spring located in a volcano crater under a typhoon to strip everything and gain clarity