For info: I'm currently in highschool, in year 11/grade 11. My grades are low (I'm failing a course too) When I was a little child, I took school more seriously, and I actually enjoyed going to school because I got to do fun kid stuff - alongside learning. But things change when the 2020 covid-19 quarantine happened. After that, I found it difficult to actually care about school. I didn't enter highschool with a good mindset. Throughout grade/year 9, 10, and 11, my grades have been really bad. What makes it worse is that my mom is all about "getting your education" because it's how she was raised, so me and her would often get into quarrels about my efforts in school. Throughout highschool I've been so miserable. A big portion of my stress comes from school. It makes me neglect anything that has to do with school I.e. overdue assignments. This has just gotten worse overtime. Before I entered highschool, I confidentally told my mother that I would never skip school...spoiler: I do. This year, I've skipped more school than any other time in my life. Another thing which makes it difficult for me to care about school is that I have no plan on what job I intend to go into. I'm just doing random courses to get my credits. This makes me value school a whole lot less because...what's the purpose of it? I take a course, learn and have to memorize a bunch of stuff which I will forget overtime, stress about assignments that are due, and get my credit. That's it. I feel so directionless right now and I find no purpose in going to school. But, does this mean that it isn't important? No. I need my highschool diploma of course. But still, I've tried to get myself to actually care about school but I just don't. I always see it as of lesser importance. I envy the people who can genuinely care about school (and have high grades as well). Because I struggle to do both of those. I could go on for much longer about why I can't get myself to care about school, but I just want to find a solution.

With the talk around dopamine detoxing, I thought I’d bring how smaller but more overarching changes to already existing habits can remind me why I truly do a habit or task. For example: I’m going to order unflavoured protein powder instead of vanilla, so it’s neutral rather than a sweet treat. I avoid music when working out. I restricted my painting supplies to one paint pallet and two brushes only. I restrict course-related study to 3 hours a day to ensure quality over empty busywork (Parkinson’s law). What are some changes you have made to minimalise/reduce your habits or daily tasks to help you focus on what’s important?

i've been currently researching on the importance of sleep, and chronotypes. which one are you? https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/chronotype-quiz (i'm in the lion category)

So yesterday I started my dopamine detox, and I deleted apps, I planned it out, and yeah. The one issue is music. I like music, I like dancing as a hobby. But I'm on a dopamine detox, so should I be cutting back on that? Music does give me dopamine but I'm wondering if it's healthier. Or should I be listening to music which has no lyrics, and is one of those "ambient sounds/music"? (I'll link a video) https://youtu.be/sjkrrmBnpGE?si=ErX5yiV_GNZImrN6 Yeah I'm a little confused hahah. How should I handle music/dancing during my detox?

Starting June 1st I'll go on a digital detox so that I can focus on writing my book. I really love this story and the ideas I have for it. What I don't love is that I keep letting a glass rectangle control my life. I'm going to use this platform to help me track my progress and keep accountable. Everyday I'll post progress updates and how I feel throughout the whole thing. I also got Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport so I'll be reading that. YouTube and Instagram will be off my phone. I'll only use YouTube on my laptop for workout and stretching videos. I'll have unhook on my laptop so nothing distracts me or attemps to. My writing project is a fantasy-romance book set in an eternal winter. The main characters are married and they have to go on this life or death quest to save their Kingdom. It's dual pov with ancient secrets, love, strong magical creatures, medieval setting, attack on titan vibes. I have 2 chapters written and going to start on chapter 3. Those are my plans! Here are some pics for the vibe of my project.