D70Flow Talk about even numbers being monumental and now let's talk about being bamboozled. Thought when we were getting into the business of forgiving today, we were forgiving her (for that) or them or they or the )wo(man ...come to find out, punchline, we're forgiving ourselves 🤡 D70Unpack Some things follow you, whereas others just linger. Remain the same Fester ...pick a lane Cross the threshold like a naughty vampire uninvited and completely intrusive leave(s) me feeling embarrassed, ashamed, apologetic and sorry for you, for me, for them, and for all those we will hopefully spare from this in the future. SORRY PLEASE tell me what i can do to help you heal Meanwhile, (...moving on [w/ my life]) Far from forgiven (dear self) but at least closer to peace I SEE YOU I see you there Pounding Yelling I see you un-ignore-able I see you Severe and extreme even in your subtleties And for your penance, you get another day 🔃🔄🔃

Day 71 of the challenge caught me after two tough days of exercises and a difficult morning when I got locked out of my car while it was running. At my eldest son's kindergarten, there was quite a bit of chaos, and my son himself knows exactly how to throw me off balance. On a day like this, the practice – which took place on the train on my way to work – managed to ground and calm me. And now, as I write these words, I’m in a completely different state of mind than I was just twenty minutes ago. Thank God for my amazing family, and thank God that I approached this challenge and the exercises with a real desire to grow, without cynicism. Otherwise, this day would probably have continued as it began. In Israel, the week starts on Sunday, so I wish you all a blessed week and a peaceful mind.

What a beautiful glowing light that filled my body and the gratitude I felt in my heart. I immediately when to yoga afterwards taking a walk there, soaking in , taking in the leftover range of glowing leaves in the trees above me and below me. I’m breathing in the cool autumn air and appreciating my feet on the ground. The meditation at yoga was guided with glowing stars on all my joints. This lovely Sunday is in rhythm with my heart and the universe is providing everything I need.

D69Flow Many of witchy women in my life have told me about the power(s) of intuition. Typically about the power of THEIR (own personal) intuition, but 'generally' as well and to such an extensive extent that I've come to believe it to be truth, or at least 'a thing' although I will never deny that true abundant willpower will always prevail, maybe not 'over' intuition, but in parallel & somewhat symbiotically, right Eve? D69Unpack Free will or predestination, willpower or predetermined? 'I trust my intuition and I allow the universe to guide me' ...let's dissect some blurry bullshit together. 'Trusting my intuition' feels like it's already inside of me, and knows what to do, which sounds pretty predetermined, but to have to 'trust in it' feels like I have a say in it, or at least an opportunity to ignore its existence, which sounds a lot more like free will. Now the universe 'guiding me' that is completely some predestined malarkey, but having to, 'allow for it' sounds like I'm back in the garden with another serpentine apple decision on my hands 🍎 🐍 So which is it, am I writing the (good) book, or along for the (bad) trip?

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