D18Flow Nearly took me till day 19 to get through 18. Man, what a fuckin scatterbrain doozy of a day/days/daze. Showed up. Made it though and that's all that fuckin counts Right? Oh, the good old rhetorical 'right'. Feeling much better (now). How come I keep waiting so long. This would be better in the beginning (of my day/life) Why do I stress so fuckin much about it. It's about not giving a fuck, (rhetorical) Right? D18Unpack Why when asked to envision something that's happened in my life, or a feeling, or a place , or a...during meditation, why do I often feel anxiety and draw a blank and then start spiraling, worrying that if I can't find this place, or this feeling, or this... I'm going to fall behind & fail. WHY why WHY? Literally what has transpired in the 3.5 hours in between penning this flow and writing this unpack could not be scripted FUUUUUUUUUICCCCKKK ...and (unapologetically) no fucks given