D70Flow Talk about even numbers being monumental and now let's talk about being bamboozled. Thought when we were getting into the business of forgiving today, we were forgiving her (for that) or them or they or the )wo(man ...come to find out, punchline, we're forgiving ourselves 🤡 D70Unpack Some things follow you, whereas others just linger. Remain the same Fester ...pick a lane Cross the threshold like a naughty vampire uninvited and completely intrusive leave(s) me feeling embarrassed, ashamed, apologetic and sorry for you, for me, for them, and for all those we will hopefully spare from this in the future. SORRY PLEASE tell me what i can do to help you heal Meanwhile, (...moving on [w/ my life]) Far from forgiven (dear self) but at least closer to peace I SEE YOU I see you there Pounding Yelling I see you un-ignore-able I see you Severe and extreme even in your subtleties And for your penance, you get another day 🔃🔄🔃

D69Flow Many of witchy women in my life have told me about the power(s) of intuition. Typically about the power of THEIR (own personal) intuition, but 'generally' as well and to such an extensive extent that I've come to believe it to be truth, or at least 'a thing' although I will never deny that true abundant willpower will always prevail, maybe not 'over' intuition, but in parallel & somewhat symbiotically, right Eve? D69Unpack Free will or predestination, willpower or predetermined? 'I trust my intuition and I allow the universe to guide me' ...let's dissect some blurry bullshit together. 'Trusting my intuition' feels like it's already inside of me, and knows what to do, which sounds pretty predetermined, but to have to 'trust in it' feels like I have a say in it, or at least an opportunity to ignore its existence, which sounds a lot more like free will. Now the universe 'guiding me' that is completely some predestined malarkey, but having to, 'allow for it' sounds like I'm back in the garden with another serpentine apple decision on my hands 🍎 🐍 So which is it, am I writing the (good) book, or along for the (bad) trip?

D84Flow Everything is falling into place. Everything in its right place. There's a place in time (for everything) Time for new things in this place. (please) Fuck, This place is a mess D84Unpack Day seventy one grateful, seventy two, where I need to be, seventy three body rest, ...and the rest is a fuckin blur, thanks vegas, As if 'vegas' was a code word for depression, quite the opposite, in its flashy multitude of distraction, followed by the fine art of distracting myself 101 home companionversion when you attend 6 performances in 7 days (w/ 2 different gals & a phil in 3 different cities). Oh, the taste of new lips Thin, eager & w/ a certain wild blue-eyed smile that inhabits the majority of your wandering thoughts long after the(ir) taste dissipates. Yet still, your postcard cuts through my boney mailbox, like a hot knife through (the) butter(y carotid tires of my road weary heart). Mutually perverse. Ferocious and feverishly flawed. Was that our love language or were these sincere audible reverberations upon the air just longingly lost in translation? And what tongues do you tend to speak: Tied up & twisted, Degrading & 2-D Straight forward & sincere Or is this a language yet to be gasped, Fanning to penned Eagerly awaiting its maiden uttering(s) Tongue tied (together)?

D68Flow Strength And being 'enough' The strength to be enough, Enough is enough Enough already Can't believe I didn't have the strength not to answer The strength not to engage The proverbial High(er) Road But she's so damn engaging Perhaps if I would have gotten engaged Been more engage-able Not had so many prior engagements Perhaps then And only perhaps D68Unpack And than there's you. Using the: ' #chaseme #chaseme ..err umm my ego 🤣 cmon i know you and you know I do' method to garner my narcissist attentions. Who's keeping who close and whoever said intentions were intended to be pure? 'Didn't want to block you and perpetuate any negatives or feelings as if you haven't been able to be heard.' - funny, cuz you certainly haven't been listening 'I'll close this door again for the purpose of mutual health.' - Only to slam it repeatedly to garner my attention 'had an interesting idea for healthy non confrontational, non-negative friendly ongoing communication in an artistic way but probably shouldn't broach or bother you with that considering. All the best and take care! 🖤' 'Art' you say SOLD! (solong strength & enough) ...and I crumbled 🤦🏽‍♂️

D67Flow The answers aren't out there (yet) 📺 Do something (more) productive with your time ⏰ https://youtu.be/mof_aZNCuZw?si=EGTKjj2TKF7KS9Yk D67Unpack Not sure which rubs me more the wrong way: Voluntarily participating in a system that is clearly flawed and that I adamantly do not believe in or Sitting idly by outta protest, outwardly devoid of the informative passion(s) that prove 'I care' (about the future, about my friends & family, about women, babies, aliens, pussy grabbin' this country...) FUCK Few other competitions out there do I find myself not rooting for a winner, but rather lobbying for a loser How is that Sports? I mean politics 🙃 Ding ding ding And we have ourselves a winner 🏆 Ps & side note redeeming antidote which negates all the fuckery surrounding my 'civic duity' drudgery. Upon arriving at my local polling place (a church & 15 min before closin), a fellow with a crock pot was walking out the door, so I made the comment during registration: 'hey, must have missed the party cuz i saw the Crock-Pot leaving'. Proceeded to get my ballot, did my (lesser of 2...wanna stab my eyes out) due diligence, let the kind elderly man 'show me how the machine works' and as I took a step towards the door to exit, a woman's voice stopped me and said: 'hey come with me, I have a crock of pulled pork in the kitchen'. Her name is Janice, she had big (grand) mom energy and her little deliciousslice of slow cooked humanity reassured my faith, not in this flawed fucked up system, but is in People Who Care going out of their way to show it & share it ...next time around, my vote is for (more) Janice(s)✅️