Day 74 has begun… I waited for the moment I could take time for today’s practice. At home with the kids and the chaos, I couldn’t find a moment, so I left early for the train, sat at the empty station, and practiced in peace. It’s always strange to me how it might look from the outside—someone sitting on a bench, hands on their thighs, eyes closed at a train station. But that thought doesn’t stop me anymore; I don’t care what people think of me, certainly not enough to stop me from doing something I want that doesn’t bother anyone else. The practice was challenging but positive. My breathing was heavy, and it wasn’t easy to keep a steady rhythm…but I did it, and that’s the real victory. Sixteen days left in this challenge, and I already know there’s no way it’ll end there. I must keep growing and evolving, and meditation is a crucial part of the journey I need to take. Wishing you all a wonderful day from the now-crowded train station.

Sunrise... have a blessed day.

Meditation feels like it has become a part of my life. In a certain way, I feel committed to it. Today started with me struggling to find a quiet moment in the morning to practice, so I meditated on the train on my way home from work before picking up the kids... I thought it was a good time to relax before those two little rascals run me around until they go to sleep. The session wasn’t sharp. I couldn’t connect with myself, and it felt like I didn’t fully tap into the potential that today’s practice could have reached. So I told myself I’d have to practice again in the evening once the kids were asleep. And then... the evening arrived. The kids were asleep, and I just didn’t have the energy to sit and practice. I wasn’t in the mood to turn inward. As the evening went on, it felt like I was wasting waking time by not practicing as I had committed to trying again. And from that moment... I sat down. What an interesting session it turned out to be! I felt tingling in my head, moments when I was so connected to my breath that I was surprised by how deeply I was observing myself, really examining myself. I hadn’t felt this way in a practice session for such an extended time. It truly feels empowering for the journey ahead. It’s night time here now, so... Sweet dreams and strength for what’s to come.

Between journaling here, on a different app and my handy dandy paper and pen(read: set of erasable pens ☺️🤭). Almost done with a notebook I started in 2021. That’s exciting. I think I’m in a heavy transition space. Lethargic. Rigid. I feel frozen. Getting by. It’s crazy cuz this is not the first time I’ve been here. I recognize this pattern in myself. Frustrated. Pushing through and checking the box on my meditations. Even if I’m falling asleep to them. I’m giving myself grace and trusting that my subconscious is doing what it needs. Every day I am more convinced that my neurodivergent brain is the cause for my lack of effective executive function most days. I don’t wanna medicate thru big pharma. I can’t will myself to “do stuff” and routines and patterns fade away. I’m not driven by the thoughts of the future. It’s so obscure. I feel I’ve become complacent?. Or my diagnosed depression is at an all time high and the brain is frayed. How to reboot. Cuz I can’t recognize the difference right now. Doing the mechanisms… not the coping. And on the outside— it’s all moving along! Yea, getting back in my Zone and preparing for a busy season at work & getting strong af again + taking my business/health seriously + looking forward oodles of holiday school activities for the child. Especially… all. The. Socializing. Is it 2025 yet🫠 alright. All right. Always. All ways. Thank you God for another day.

We're down to the final 30 days of the 90 day challenge! I'll be posting each day's meditation in the COMMUNITY here instead of being in the classroom. If you’re a bit behind, no worries—just jump in with us. I'll be posting each new meditation around 9 to 10pm Pacific time the day before. Why this approach? I want this group to be a place where we all feel connected, not scattered, and where everyone can stick to a rhythm that feels supportive. Think of it as a fresh start for those who may have stepped away, plus a chance to keep each other accountable as we build something meaningful together. For anyone who prefers a more flexible experience go google meditations on Insight Timer, YouTube, or Spotify. In addition to our daily meditations, I’m planning to introduce shorter challenges from time to time. And for even more variety, I’ll be sharing meditations from other incredible guides, including some of my teacher training grads. It’s a great way to expand our practice and see what resonates for you. Let’s keep this momentum going, dive deep into our practices, and make this an even stronger, more supportive community. Can’t wait to see the insights and wins we’ll create together! Much love, Yogi Bryan P.S. Rules of the community are have fun and be nice so let's keep it that way.