Started my 90 day plan today, rough first then will add it to planner, I am having to do 2 as still no idea when operation will be so doing 2 means when I get it I've planned for it, How are we all getting on planing our year out.

Who's going to villa park this weekend? I remember last year I walked in on my own absolutely shitting it. I knew no one in that room. Luckily I got chatting and was able to join a group for the day which I am so grateful for. If you're coming this weekend and are in the same position, please come and find me and say hi. Message me or what ever. Don't let anxiety talk you out of what will be an amazingly constructive day.

Morning Lads ..... Downloaded SK App this morning- weird how things appear when you need them .... I'm a Dad & bonus Dad .... Lost my daughters Mum to cancer, my Mum to cancer & my Dad to 'loneliness' within 18 months back in 2013-2015 .... I haven't allowed myself to grieve & still suffer daily .... Like lots of you I live my life on pins feeling 'not good enough', full of self doubt, guilt, scared, worried, cruising, just getting by .... But don't let the world see this to the point where most people that know me would say 'Sean is such a great positive guy' .... I'm great at raising others significance and even better at lowering my own .... Need to wobble my head & get back to living .... Let's fucking go ....

My morning and evening routine got it down to a tee My work life balance spot on My heath routine I'm on top of it My family time I'm so grateful for All I need to figure out now WHO AM I ??? As it's great having all the above but if I don't know who I am and what is my purpose Then it all means nothing As I'm here for everyone else and not myself O and this is not about self pity as some would suggest It's about finding the path for me and not others

So this week has not gone to plan, kids not at school and the hole house ill, including me, so my plans have had to change, so glad to have a spinning bike at home, so i may not be able to do my running, walking on the Tmill I can do 20mins slow pace on the bike, its all i can do but it is better than nothing.