I’m a 20-year-old and I’ve been a professional laughingstock ever since primary school. I’ve had bad nicknames that have haunted me to this day. Every time I tried to make a fresh start, my past would somehow find a way to make it harder. Now, I feel like I’ve officially hit rock bottom. I can’t stop overthinking, and I’ve lost all respect for myself. I find myself endlessly scrolling through my phone and barely eating. I was even sent to the hospital once after passing out. I’ve reached a point where I tried to end my life twice, but I couldn’t go through with it because deep down, I feel like this isn’t where my story ends. Despite this, I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel. I struggle to hold eye contact and avoid going out because I’m afraid of being mocked again. When people make fun of me, I can’t even stand up for myself, and it only deepens my shame. Ironically, even though I’m kind of handsome and some women are attracted to me, I’ve never had the courage to talk to them. Instead, I always end up turning to pornography, which makes me hate myself even more. But then I found Roger’s channel. It gave me a sense of hope I hadn’t felt in a long time. When I saw the link to The Skool, I felt compelled to reach out and ask for advice. I want to change my life, but I don’t know how to take that first step

This past weeks My training sessions started to suck. I just go there andnwhen I lift i don't do it hard enough and when I try i simply don't know why, I lost my ambition in terms of physical activities or aports, when I go there I just go but don't find any energy to lift with. Physical both mental, like no hunger anymore. This also happens in My BJJ class where when i go there I don't actually find the energy to be there, in sparring they usually tap me out constantly and I surrender easily because I feel like the urge of winning. I wasn't like this, I used to crave going to the gym, to struggle and try to submit the other guy with everything i had, to learn to fight. Thoughts on this?

Ready for action today boys let’s fucking get it.its Monday it is a new week let’s fucking go get what belongs to us and what doesn’t belong to us because why not.keep it positive

Good morning everyone, NNN is here too, lets stay strong physically and mentally for the challenges to come