Hey guys, after my session with Ryan a while ago we hit on some really core stuff. Turns out I am terrified of showing the real full authentic me to the world. When I think back to childhood it makes perfect sense. Growing up showing certain sides was deemed acceptable and other sides (Like my overwhelming love of all things geeky) was brutally ridiculed. After clearing some resentment thanks to the gestalt audio on Ryan's awesome course, I realised where my biggest problem lies. The funniest part was it was multiple people asking me why I don't have a social media account that did it 😂 Now I have opinions on social media, I think it does cause a lot of problems that otherwise wouldn't exist. However the full truth is that it also presents a lot of opportunities, especially for someone like me trying to get a business/service out there. That's why I created an alternate persona for my fitness brand so nobody I knew in real life could find it as that is pretty much the full me! Passionate geeky fitness, friendly mother trucker 😂 My big goal for this month is to create a social media, add lots of people I know and then introduce my online fitness business to them. It sounds so simple but I can feel it in my guts as I type this out, it terrifies me. I'm also gonna do some trauma clearing on revealing the true me in between. But the full truth also is this would only help me and my online business. I already know loads of people would think it was cool in my conscious mind. But as we all know that guy ain't running the show 😂 So I just wanted to share all this and get everyone's takes on showing the real them to the world. Really love that we have the group here, it's so helpful! Love you guys! Stay strong!

The more I keep doing the self hypnosis, the more I realize how messed up I really was, and I was unconsciously making things so much harder for myself and I let so much bad things happen to me just because I didn’t think I deserve better. Unfortunately, those decisions put me on the tough spot. The good thing is that I’m being more patient with myself now compared to before and I’m beating myself up less(still working on it). I actually thought of giving up on self hypnosis because I saw how others were changing their lives drastically, and I’m just changing a little bit. If it wasn’t for the ones that are like me, but are still consistently using the self hypnosis, i would completely given up right now, so thanks for not giving up.

So I broke up with my girlfriend a month ago, after a over a year of conventional dialog therapy with a psychologist and trying to figure out if I was the asshole or if I was actually dealing with an abusive girlfriend. I'd been wanting to break up for a long time, but never had the cajones to actually do it. When I was actually able to do it I broke down completely, feeling like a total asshole, and a few days afterward tried to get back with her. Whenever she asked me a question that I wanted to answer honestly my body froze up completely, and I started tensing up and fight my brain on actually saying something. I wanted to speak my thoughts and feelings, but my body would not let me at all. After we got off the phone I immediately went and did a trauma clearing audio because I knew the feelings were at a high intensity. When I got into the identifying portion I went back to being three years old and my mom is screaming at me. She won't stop screaming at me. I'm three years old and don't even understand what she's screaming about, or if this is even a real memory, but I'm curled up into a ball terrified out of my three year old mind. In the real world forty year old me is bawling his eyes out on the floor, furious and screaming back at his mom for being so horrible to a defenseless little kid. I hadn't cried that much in probably five years, maybe ten. I had to pause the recording for ten minutes just to process the whole thing because I was blubbering snotty teary mess. I was able to go back in and send it all away in the tornado, and produce a protective force field, and immediately after the recording ended I passed out in exhaustion on my sleeping pad I had setup on the floor for the session. Woke up two hours later and went to bed. The next morning I felt like I had been released from prison. I was happy and excited about the day, and looking forward to collecting my thoughts on my relationship with my girlfriend and going to an extra therapy session to try and refine them before meeting my girlfriend for a talk about if we were going to get back together. Because despite the crap I've dealt with from her, she actually is a very sweet girl who has a huge level of trauma herself that she has never tried to remedy, and the little girl inside is screaming for the love and safety that she never got as a kid.

I agree with this video 100%, and i believe some in our community are actually seeing this for themselves. Being hypnotized and being open to suggestion and brain re-wiring in hypnosis improves if you do it more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgtSl3lDrGM

Does this happen to anyone else? I know it's very common but it's been happening a lately. I've been doing predominantly Gestalt audio and I keep falling asleep right towards the end.