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I talked to my mother today. She come down after my brother same. I am keeping my distances. My mother and I talked, she asked if I want to spend time with her and my brother. I was offended because they always put me down. I can go on and on, but as we were talking my mother was 'justifying' the pass as reasons to continue with there behaviour. My mother was cry a bit, got angry a bit and it sounded manipulative with a lot of lying. But that could be a bias (don't know) it's so much of the same thing with out any changes, so I just assume. She left upset. One thing about the conversation was her taking me to a private school and getting my uncle to make me study, which sounds like a good thing. Her bringing this up today felt like 'I did this for you, so you owe me' type of thing. It feels like she believes she has the reins to my life and she's upset because I don't see it that way. She made me do the 'empathetic thing' about her and her and my brothers situation. It feels manipulative but I don't know. She said "you don't tell me anything" and began to cry. There have been plenty of times when I opened up to her and she put me down. And she told me that! But I told her about my studies in Cyber security and the opportunities it comes with it. She did nod yes when I reminded her. Overall, its like she can't see pass her own nose. I tried to explain my perspective and she not listening. She made me feel that what I went through matters not and the efforts I've done without them matters not. Like they don't exist. During this conversation, it's like she doesn't see me, like I'm not even there. It's like I don't matter, what happened to me don't matter, what I'm doing to move forward doesn't matter, what I'm saying doesn't matter. (This reminds me of the session I had with Ryan when I opened up about not getting what I want and feeling bad for wanting what I want). I wanted to share and be open. Any tips/advise please? It would be appreciated. Sharing this helps me uncover and understand things better, so I can do better at doing the Dive to the Five and self hypnosis sessions.

My brother is living with me and my father. He turned 29 this year. I try my best to connect with him but being around him feels uncomfortable. He were close as kids but our mother wasn't too kind with both of us. I can go on but he now gives similar treatment as my mother once did. I'm 26 now and I've been getting this treatment between the age of 10 - 13. He deals with it by getting drunk and then beings by taking down on me with anger and cockiness. He told me today what he does this by 'trying to help'. He tells me that he 'hates me'. I don't know why. I sometimes see him smile when he treats me poorly. I can't move out right now, but when I get a job in Pentesting I will be able to travel. From there, I was thinking to never see him again, as I did with my mother. I just saw briefly after 2 years. I feel/think that my brother let me down. Any tips would be appreciated.

Who else has trouble turning off and getting to sleep after a shift? Not the end of the world and not my first time using meditation/hypnosis. But I feel like I'm undergoing a mental shift and can't sleep properly now for several nights

I agree with this video 100%, and i believe some in our community are actually seeing this for themselves. Being hypnotized and being open to suggestion and brain re-wiring in hypnosis improves if you do it more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgtSl3lDrGM