Ever since I started playing I always had that aim of being a professional but constantly struggled with confidence and motivation. I feel like this over time gave me such a negative perception of football to the point where playing it wasn't fun, i would constantly overthink about it and would only play football if my friends were playing it. I always had moments of intense motivation that changed into moments of overbearing laziness that took over me. I always train for the sake of training, for my friends to not call me undedicated but never for myself or my dream. What do I do?

Hello guys, today, i officialy finished 1st week of this journey. After only 7 days of dedicates work i already seen improvements, esspecialy in my technique. For today i had planed a team training at one of my local teams (i dont play at that team, my team is at higher level) But it is canceled because of extreme raining and wind. For today, i did: 60 min full body workout. 10 min warm up 20 min upper body 10 min lower body explosivity 10 min core work 10 min of foam rolling. Because of 1st week, tomorow i am gona to try to break my curent juggling record. (Of course if weather get better) My curent record is 1985 Se yall tomorow

Hello guys, for day 6 i again did solo technical session. for today i did: -for warm-up i run 1 lap around field w ball and a bit of warm up exercieses -after that i did a bit of some type of fitness w ball, but focus ben more at dribbling i have 50 cones, i put one on ground and other 49 i just post randomly and make large ronaldinho drill after i get trough it i do around 5-10 ground wall passes w scaning. then i do half turn and get again to ronaldinho drill and then do 1v1 move at that cone, rest for 10-20 sec and repeat 20x. really good drill -after that i did a plus drill-it is how drill is called i founded it on 7mlc chanel you put 5 cones in + shape and go around every cone. counter clocwise w right foot and clockwise w left foot. i did 4x with each foot (8 in total) and then i made that drill much bigger and did same thing 3x each foot -after that i worked in reciving ball in pressure, where you pass the ball at wall and put a cone 1 m in front of you and you try to feint it and get around it as fast and sharp as possible 15x each side -and then i did worked at reciving from air with both feet, all surfaces of my feet and chest. directional touch exc. -and i just did juggling to clear my mind from session and i did no restrictions, tried many variations, tricks exc. -then i did around 10 min of tenis ball juggling after i came home i did 10 min of foam rolling session took around 2-3h i really feel improvement in these 6 days. i became sharper on ball, sprint faster and became more agile w ball see you tomorow after i finish 1st week. thanks.

Hello guys, for day 5 i just did solo technical session. Here is what i did: -5 km run w ball (around 40 min) -did 2 tight space dribbling drills (around 30 min) -did first touch work. Many variations (around 15 min) -a bit of juggling ( idk for how long i did that, i did that just to get more ball work and to have fun a bit) for today i needed to work a bit more, but my quad muscles are too sore bcs of day 3. That us it for today guys, se yall tomorow on day 6. Bye!

hello guys, for day 4 i did a bit of playing football with my friend for about 2 hours, after he left home, i stayed around 1 hour just juggling, kicking it up, practicing first souch from the air and just enjoyed playing. i seen a bit improvement in just 4 days in my techical ability. i am curently most technical player at my team. thanks for everybody for support and hope i will get more of support, i support everybody of you all. i need to ad this for a bit of support: do you belive in me?