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Too much

I have too much on my mind and my hands.

There’s so many catch-22’s in my life and living situation that I’m just going in circles.

I need to move, but have no money to do it until my wife/caretaker/wants to be divorced person begins a new job, hundreds of miles away.

- I finally have a doctor who listens again but I can’t afford to live here so I’m going to have to do everything via telemedicine or find a new doctor wherever I move.-

I can’t decide where to live partly because of income limitations, partly because of my myriad of health problems, not being able to stay awake and focus well enough to get a full picture of the places I could actually afford to move to.

I really need something between assisted living and independent living with some in home care and cleaning etc. But the costs for that are WAY too high, even if she would generously give me half of her income for support, and which is not going to be even close to that in reality…

I have many health issues including mental, but being that delusional is NOT one of them 😅

So here I am feeling almost hopelessly lost & still brokenhearted/grieving the end of my marriage even though it’s been mostly dead for a few years.

I don’t know what to say or do now, I just stared at the blinking cursor for a solid 5 minutes or more.

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