Day 18 · Release Your F*cks Society

Justin Ayala

2d ago in Journal 📝

Day 18

D18Flow

Nearly took me till day 19 to get through 18. Man, what a fuckin scatterbrain doozy of a day/days/daze. Showed up.

Made it though and that's all that fuckin counts

Right?

Oh, the good old rhetorical 'right'.

Feeling much better (now).

How come I keep waiting so long.

This would be better in the beginning (of my day/life)

Why do I stress so fuckin much about it.

It's about not giving a fuck,

(rhetorical) Right?

D18Unpack

Why when asked to envision something that's happened in my life, or a feeling, or a place , or a...during meditation, why do I often feel anxiety and draw a blank and then start spiraling, worrying that if I can't find this place, or this feeling, or this... I'm going to fall behind & fail.

WHY why WHY?

Literally what has transpired in the 3.5 hours in between penning this flow and writing this unpack could not be scripted

FUUUUUUUUUICCCCKKK

...and (unapologetically) no fucks given

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