Where I am today - beware
In no way do I intend for this to be negative - it is for Support thru Transparency I struggle with sleeping every night since I caught covid I don’t even have an idea of how much sleep I get thru the night/day but seems like I’m on a constant sleep chase It’s been so uncomfortable to be awake The moment I open my eyes or even while sleep, I struggle to stay asleep … I have not been able to be present for my children as I would like since March 18, 2021 When I wake I pray but feel really confused, fatigued & headaches, It’s a struggle to get out of bed but staying in bed does not help There is a spiral or cognitive symptoms & emotions Difficulty focusing, being calm, present or thinking about simple things signals massive stress response It’s preventing me for being able to work go to the gym & just being able to walk to the store for one thing or take my children to school in the morning It feels like I am dying 24/7 burning head sensations The hardest part is not being able to feel & function like myself I haven’t been able to enjoy life Most of my day is spent crying, praying & running to the bathroom Struggling to cook, go food shopping & just feel good My mind & body feels like it is not mine I can’t be alone but being with others hasn’t helped much Constantly trying to convince myself that I am not dying when feeling so close to death is extremely debilitating & exhausting I just finished watching all modules & taking some notes I’m overly sensitive to so many foods if I can even eat I am going to create a simple alkaline diet, ordered more teas & resume the program July 1st I want to enjoy the simple things with my family & friends Thanks for listening