HOOO-EEEEE it's been a rough ride these last few months. I fell off the meditation wagon here in less than 10 days of the 90-day challenge starting. Since then, my divorce was finalized and I'm almost done with that 🍆, I started therapy to start undoing years of bullshit damage, had my first full-blown oh-my-god-im-dying-panic-attack, earned some new 'credentials' from my therapist including PTSD and ADHD among others, and just in the last few days, received a horrific health diagnosis for one of my senior dogs. 😭 Funny how with all the shit I've been through in the last couple of decades, my dog's diagnosis was the thing that completely broke me. I'm struggling hard. But I am also very determined to not turn into a fucking statistic. So I'm back, bitches! Starting anew. It's a new fucking chapter, and I get to write the story this time. DAY ONE COMPLETE! Anyone else restarting who wants to jump in and be an accountability buddy? This bitch needs all the help she can get!

I want to take purposeful time for me. Time to connect, and think and NOT think. I tend to commit to everyone else before me, so I'm taking this opportunity to choose me for once.

The 90-day challenge is live in the classroom. Click HERE to access it. Drop 🍑 emoji in the comments if you are f*cking ready for this challenge. You can start anytime. I'm proud of you for taking action and being here. Every single moment in your life has led you to this one, right here, right now. You are exactly where you f*cking need to be. Yes, you are. And you absolutely deserve to relax. Below are some helpful tips and links to guide you on your journey. Remember, you can join this challenge at any time. If you miss a day or fall off track, don't stress. Just get back into it and start again from Day 1. The goal is to build 90 days of consistent meditation. Fall down 7 times, get up 8, f*ck face. You've got this! Rules of the Community: 1. BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF 2. HAVE FUN 3. BE NICE AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER IN THE COMMUNITY Helpful reminders: Tell your f*cking friends to join at the link below: https://www.skool.com/release-your-fcks-4327/about Prepare by: 1. Watching the instructions 2. Watching the 90-day challenge 3. Inviting your friends or anyone that needs to release fucks 💥

I've deleted the fake friends, my husband's family, the friend requests I accepted because I didn't want to hurt their feelings. Even my one true friend. I see her at least once a month, so I know she understands. I don't care about the anniversary of a colleague from twenty-five years ago or the births of my ex hairdresser. I've kept my Facebook account to follow things of interest, like Australian native gardens, animals and birds, wellbeing, history, music, and food. Also to read odd posts about concerts and markets, which I probably won't go to and books which I won't read. I've been buying and selling on Marketplace, so now, of all the fucks I shouldn't give energy to, I wonder what people might think of me when they see that I have no Facebook friends. I'm sure they don't think or care about what I think of their 759 or more friends, or whether I believe them. I hope they have one true friend. Do people collect friends on social media to avoid the possibility of one day being alone? What would they do better or differently if they had to rebuild their lives from scratch? I'm lonely and not because of the 'social' detox. I'm married with two adult children. I'm not scared of being alone. I actually need to decompress; to unpeople and spend time by myself. I'm planning a solo trip. I'm not lonely when I'm by myself. I'm disconnected. I've lost myself...or to own my bullshit, I'll say that I didn't see the red flags, I married a narcissist who wore me down and I gave up on myself. I used to judge women like that. I've changed. I went to see Richard Clapton two nights ago. He's seventy-five. All of the musical artists whose soundtracks shaped my life, are either of similar age or dead. I'm grateful to have seen so many live performances. We're all on the train. 'To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow.' Audrey Hepburn. So I plant and I water.

Hey F*ckers, my name is Jenny and I'm Yogi Bryan's Assistant. Here is the replay of the kickoff call today. The replay is in the classroom too. Make sure you invite your friends and family to the challenge at the link https://www.skool.com/release-your-fcks-4327/about. Challenge starts tomorrow Sept 1st but you can join at anytime.