So this one was really poignant because in all my side hustle is as a podcaster and I just recently had an interview with a jazz musician who survived pancreatic cancer. And before that I had an interview with a operational psychologist who survived stage 4 lymphoma and I'm thinking there is a. There is a pattern here that the universe is letting me know that. Yes I I have MS. Yes I have certain health issues that I think we could argue that I caused on myself with with my heart and diabetes and and just the way that I've lived my life. And I guess I'm grateful that I'm still here that there's still a spark in me. Sometimes it's dim sometimes. It's a raging fire and I'm grateful for the community here because I forget who it was. But you know I when I was meditating I was clenching my jaw and then somebody said well put your tongue up against the roof of your mouth, your palate and that should help and it has. So I'm grateful for everybody here that has responded to. If I have a question or if I have a concern and I'm grateful for all of you of you being encouraging to me and I want to be encouraging to you so that you can be grateful for me. Hey Julie, for all of you here and grateful to Instagram and tick tock for introducing me to Yogi Brian. And yeah, it's it's a grateful kind of day today so I need to get back and edit a podcast and I'm grateful that I have the ability to do that. So everybody go out there and tackle today and have a good one

What a beautiful glowing light that filled my body and the gratitude I felt in my heart. I immediately when to yoga afterwards taking a walk there, soaking in , taking in the leftover range of glowing leaves in the trees above me and below me. I’m breathing in the cool autumn air and appreciating my feet on the ground. The meditation at yoga was guided with glowing stars on all my joints. This lovely Sunday is in rhythm with my heart and the universe is providing everything I need.

The hubs and kiddo got me a crystal advent box for my birthday. The first one I opened was a sodalite. An intuition stone. Again, right on time.

D69Flow Many of witchy women in my life have told me about the power(s) of intuition. Typically about the power of THEIR (own personal) intuition, but 'generally' as well and to such an extensive extent that I've come to believe it to be truth, or at least 'a thing' although I will never deny that true abundant willpower will always prevail, maybe not 'over' intuition, but in parallel & somewhat symbiotically, right Eve? D69Unpack Free will or predestination, willpower or predetermined? 'I trust my intuition and I allow the universe to guide me' ...let's dissect some blurry bullshit together. 'Trusting my intuition' feels like it's already inside of me, and knows what to do, which sounds pretty predetermined, but to have to 'trust in it' feels like I have a say in it, or at least an opportunity to ignore its existence, which sounds a lot more like free will. Now the universe 'guiding me' that is completely some predestined malarkey, but having to, 'allow for it' sounds like I'm back in the garden with another serpentine apple decision on my hands 🍎 🐍 So which is it, am I writing the (good) book, or along for the (bad) trip?

Ever notice when you forgive yourself or others the weight that is lifted? I am walking through the day feeling a little lighter. I think I just lost 10 lbs in that meditation. It feels unnecessary to hold on to such feelings and now I’m freeing them. I have space for something new.