Tough Day · PMDD Rehab Community (FREE)

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Tough Day

Hi everyone,

I don’t typically share personal things with anybody, but I joined this community for a reason and if my struggle can help any of you with your struggles, then I guess I better speak up. That’s the only way we can heal through this together, right?

My partner recently moved out of our house that we were living in together. He told me that he was having a lot of trouble dealing with my mood swings. I thought I had been doing relatively well with managing them, I was not having any major behavioral issues with rage (which I have in the past had to deal with in other relationships).

We have only been together for a little over a year, and I told him early on that I live with a disorder called PMDD. I did my best to explain what it is, but because I am still so new at understanding it myself and how to manage it, PMDD was its usual wrecking ball even though I thought I was being very aware and communicative with my partner.

Anyway, I’m feeling a little bit, defeated and hopeless, I’m looking forward to listening to Jes’s relationship recording that she provided for us live last night.

In all honesty, I am feel worried/afraid that I am never going to be able to have a normal loving relationship with a patient, understanding and compassionate man, because even though I thought I was doing my best, it apparently wasn’t enough. I feel like I have so much I need to learn with how to manage this horrible disorder with a full-time, live in partner.

The isolation factor with PMDD is so hard, I don’t know if any of you have the strong urge to just isolate when you’re in your luteal phase – it feels like a double edge sword - isolation seems to be the only way to manage it safely but then it also creates barriers with loved ones by cutting yourself off from them.

Anyway, thank you for listening everybody. I hope you’re all doing OK today and just remember you’re not alone, there are plenty of us out there that completely understand what you’re dealing with. 🫶🏻

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