ACIM vs. counseling for recovery?
I keep wavering on whether or not I should be a part of ACIM groups for healing . Part of me wants to be a part of ACIM because it’s been really answering a lot of questions and helping me see my next steps of getting to the root cause of my suffering (overcoming the Fear & guilt) and would like the support to heal the one problem of separation and grievances Another part feels like ACIM groups are too overwhelming & just increasing my guilt & fear feeling beat up with all these spiritual “concepts” (ie Projection, Mirroring, Manifesting, Surrendering, Allowing, Intention, Forgiveness, Victim mentality etc etc) I’m recovering from severe abuse where I almost lost my life , lost my health/energy/strength, lost my sanity, lost my self-love/self-esteem, lost my ability to work, ability to trust myself/trust God, Lost my vision & ability to see or discern, lost my car because it was stolen, almost lost my house to forclosure, lost all enjoyment for life & lost my will to live….. I feel like these spiritual concepts & cliches are the same as people throwing Bible quotes at you when your hurting & on the edge. Thus far most my experiences with “spiritual/religious” communities don’t allow for honesty of what’s in your heart & are easily offended & triggered by it as “negative energy” and/or think there’s a quick fix answer . (With a few exceptions) I used to try to be compassionate & understanding that people mean well and are trying to help fix me but now it just either pisses me off or depresses me and adds to the difficulty of getting past this … adding more grievances when I’m already overwhelmed with all my grievances & judgments I’m trying to forgive Yes I realize I’m the dumbass that I created my reality. My mother had just died and I was not in my right mind in choosing a partner & foolishly believed he wanted to love me & support my healing , not destroy or kill me I guess what I’m asking is….. Has anyone here healed & recovered from these types of thiings ? (PTSD, DPDR & 30yrs of chronic illness) pain)