ACIM vs. counseling for recovery?

Nov '23 in Feed

I keep wavering on whether or not I should be a part of ACIM groups for healing .

Part of me wants to be a part of ACIM because it’s been really answering a lot of questions and helping me see my next steps of getting to the root cause of my suffering (overcoming the Fear & guilt) and would like the support to heal the one problem of separation and grievances

Another part feels like ACIM groups are too overwhelming & just increasing my guilt & fear feeling beat up with all these spiritual “concepts” (ie Projection, Mirroring, Manifesting, Surrendering, Allowing, Intention, Forgiveness, Victim mentality etc etc)

I’m recovering from severe abuse where I almost lost my life , lost my health/energy/strength,

lost my sanity, lost my self-love/self-esteem,

lost my ability to work, ability to trust myself/trust God,

Lost my vision & ability to see or discern, lost my car because it was stolen, almost lost my house to forclosure, lost all enjoyment for life &

lost my will to live…..

I feel like these spiritual concepts & cliches are the same as people throwing Bible quotes at you when your hurting & on the edge.

Thus far most my experiences with “spiritual/religious” communities don’t allow for honesty of what’s in your heart & are easily offended & triggered by it as “negative energy” and/or think there’s a quick fix answer . (With a few exceptions)

I used to try to be compassionate & understanding that people mean well and are trying to help fix me

but now it just either pisses me off or depresses me and adds to the difficulty of getting past this …

adding more grievances when I’m already overwhelmed with all my grievances & judgments I’m trying to forgive

Yes I realize I’m the dumbass that I created my reality.

My mother had just died and I was not in my right mind in choosing a partner & foolishly believed he wanted to love me & support my healing , not destroy or kill me

I guess what I’m asking is…..

Has anyone here healed & recovered from these types of thiings ? (PTSD, DPDR & 30yrs of chronic illness) pain)

I’m looking for supoort from people who’ve already healed NOT people who are suffering just as much as me

And if so, would you advise I stay away from these groups and stick with counseling for now ?

And come back later after I’ve dealt with all my anger & grief ?

It’s very hard to suppress the truth of what I’m feeling & struggling with and not sure these types of groups are the appropriate place to try and get help

If that makes sense to someone hopefully

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