The monthly call this today was amazing. Wendy must be a mind reader. I have been beating myself up, ruminating, regretting, and then doing it more in regard to a purchase I made. I "should know better by now and know how to stop the nagging." Forgiving myself was a key takeaway. I am implementing a new system. I am starting with Clean, Clean, Clean. In addition, I say the statement Wendy shared regarding "I forgive myself for judging myself for_____. And doing rest of routine while I Tap Tap Tap!! I can tweak it and make it my own; however, I am just starting and not "trying" to get it perfect to start. I will be listening to the call again!

I watched a chat between Trevor Timbeck (one of the authors of The Power of Systems) and Dominic Scaffidi. At one point in the video Trevor compares our body to a bell. When you hit a bell it has these beautiful sounds and resonance. But if you stuffed that bell full of cottonballs and hit it, it would just make a THUD. He said that this is what most of us have done to our bodies. Stuffed it full with cotton balls. I could really picture that, and so it just made me think of all the ways we 'stuff our bodies with cottonballs' and dull everything. Interesting. Anyway...he says it WAY better than I have explained it here! 🤣

Today I read a quote that said something in the lines of "life is change. Growth is optional" and I had to reflect on it for a minute, feeling profound gratitude for another incredible Fall day, a delightful lunch with @Valerie Kendall (who provides the most amazing hugs), a squeezed in power session at the gym and the opportunity to share the wins and a minute of daily gratitude with this community. Because here we choose Growth every single day, and we choose it with intention. Few people feel and are part of communities that grow. We are incredibly lucky. As per embracing the change.... I had a great walk with the dog in a sunny morning, a short and wet one in the afternoon and a very snow-white, slippery one tonight....🙄... Not impressed by the 3rd walk.... Not impressed at all.... But can't change it, so let's embrace that as well.

This was a short passage from the book "Power of Systems: How to Create a Life that Works" that I highlighted in my Kindle. "I become bogged down trying to find out what psychological qualities I need to add to achieve what I wish to achieve. But as the saying goes, spending all my time in the wishing well has me emerge with a wishbone instead of a backbone." The metaphor of being in the wishing well is quite powerful for me. I am working at developing my backbone, rather than my wishbone!! 🤣

This morning, reading "Expectation Hangover", time-traveling to the past is usually not a pleasant trip. Usually I beat myself up or live in a fantasy about how much better things were. I spend time in the past (which fuels guilt and regret) and the future (which fuels anxiety, worry, and fear). Rewinding time is not possible and what happened is OVER. Beating myself up, wishing it was different, or feeling guilty is not going to change it and is a waste of precious energy. I am taking all the awareness I have NOW and beating myself up because I didn't know it THEN. Driving my car with my hands on the rear-view mirror, thinking I can time-travel and "fix" it. When I become aware, I guide my thoughts back to the truth.