@Lisa Perini thank you. I can see that. That makes sense.

@Grayson Allen oh.. yes yes yes. Atoms moving. Yea. Atoms are always moving. I seem to remember this discussion before. I remember thinking that yes we are connected. And thinking that that's how I can sense some people's distress even when I'm not in the same city with them or state with them. Such as my best friend's miscarriage and I didn't even know she was pregnant and I knew when my daughter was in danger. Things like that.

I can love. I love deeply. I care deeply. I forgive freely. But I never feel Worthy of being loved. I tried I believed and then I was told I wasn't again but I do know that my God loves me so maybe people don't but I know that God does and I knew for a fact my grandpa loved me. I think I'm pretty okay too. 😁

I think people should just be who they are. My grandmother was very masculine my grandfather was very feminine. They were perfect the way they were. My grandmother was English and mohawk my grandfather was Italian.

@Lisa Perini they were. My grandma knew all the birds songs and could call them to her. She had squirrels and chipmunks and all kinds of other critters just coming up to her and she would pet him and then they would just go on their way. My grandpa used to take my older brother and I for walks through the woods cuz he had a huge piece of land and he taught my older brother and I had to tell which animal we were coming across by the tracks and he taught us how to tell which direction we were going by the moss on the trees he he taught us how to tell when a storm was coming in by the way the leaves were turned. He sure did love us. He was the most amazing man I had ever known. I never pulled my tomfoolery on him I loved him so much I was always well behaved around him.

I find this confusing. When I see a picture of the child that was me I hate her. So I looked it up and it said something about the I don't know I can't remember now but I do play fallout which is a video game I do like to play video games. But my brother and I were little we would hide in the trees and ditch school together and steal. We ran the streets. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I no longer enjoy those things but sometimes when I want to remember my brother I do enjoy playing video games that remind me of that. Games that include stealth and theft but I myself abor those things. It really confuses me. I think the whole concept confuses me. I'll stop there

Well we used to ditch school and jump trains. Oh I know we swim in the Hudson. My folks like to scuba dive and water ski so they taught us how to do that when we were young. I could swim from the time I was very very small so I guess swimming but when we moved to Colorado I got some freedom that was just for me and that was riding horses. If you can visualize a brick wall with some of the bricks gone. You can see movement behind the wall where the bricks are missing. But the rest of the area is blocked off by the wall that's my childhood that's what I remember I remember what's not blocked off by the bricks. So there's a lot of questions you're probably going to post here that I won't be able to answer.

@Jade Calvert oh okay. Thank you

And yes I do agree.