Was a little short on time yesterday but I take time in the morning to listen to some Theta waves and catch the sun coming up. Just tried to visualize what I wanted to accomplish for the day and some peak state. The peak state vision has been almost like a panoramic photo. Im in the center, in my best physicial condition, happy and positive. Im surrounded by my LTR and my daughter along with her 2 kids. Behind me is a large contemporary style house, 4 car garage. Then Imagining myself being financially free to where I can travel to several tropical locales every year, a thriving business (not sure what type/industry although I've been gravitating towards home services of several types). Just continuing to try and eliminate the noise and get dialed in to see what comes into focus. Did an afternoon meditation using "Om" chanting just trying to let go of all thoughts. Hasnt been perfect and probably catch myself drifting into thoughts more often than not but consistency hopefully pays off here.

This will be the start of a running log of daily meditation and visualization. Here I'll update about actions, progress, mental blocks, and results. This is an area of very high focus for me right now in order to clear a massive amount of mental "noise" I have with regard to the direction my life is headed. Paul has modules on these items, and for anybody struggling with issues, this could help provide some clarity. As I mentioned I am going to copy journal entries directly from my notepad. I think hand writing them first is a great way to de-clutter your thoughts and almost practice a bit of mindful meditation by writing since we all just type to text now. To me, I retain things better when hand writing them. Day 1 - As of now the clarity for some things in the future non-existent. My plan is to use all these tools day by day to help remove the noise, little by little. This is going to take a lot of practice for me personally because of the amount of thoughts I can have at any one time. I'll implement audio aids such as alpha waves and "om" chanting videos. Along with these I'll be doing several walks a day after meals and in between when I can as well as meditating in place with the visualization exercise.

What I never see video content from anybody on is the initial text game. I know Corey Wayne says you have to get the ball rolling and then expect the woman to do most of the pursuing. My conundrum is when I match online get a phone number and they are reluctant to reach out. Many of them will flake anyway so I feel like you have to create a bridge until you can actually meet. The bridge meaning daily text may be a picture, something to keep them engaged. Am I wrong on this? And should I sit back and make the woman either text First occasionally or forget about the thread? Again, I’m talking mainly about the few days or week between linking up phone numbers and actually meeting.

Good afternoon gentlemen. Im long overdue for a introductory post as I rejoined the group a few months back after consulting with @John Rogalsky and setting up a call with Paul. I know some of you but most names I dont recognize so I'll get into a little backstory but most will be about looking forward along with some accountability posts to follow. I dont want to make this so long that guys dont read so if anybody wants me to elaborate more on any section then I will do a breakout post beyond what I write. In making the most out of this group, I encourage EVERYONE to put it ALL out there when discussing these things. You can't make the most out groups like this if the rest of us dont have the full picture when helping decipher the situation. I get that some may have details they dont want to share, but this group should be judgement free and provide tough love at the same time. Thats what we are all here to do - grow together and crush goals along the way. Looking forward to interacting with everyone. I turned 44 in Sept and got divorced a little over 5 years ago (she initiated but I filed). It was a typical marriage in many aspects. We met in our late 20's at work, seemed to have similar goals and enjoyed the same things (probably a little too much). We were married for almost 9 years and have an awesome daughter who I see every week but is still with her mom most of the time. She will be 12 on Nov 20th. Again, I wont get into details to keep the intro post short, but my ex came from a conservative family in south Mississippi and seemed to lean that way herself. We both worked for Lockheed Martin at the time, and she still does. Throughout the marriage we relocated a few times so she could get a promotion into a few different senior manager spots. I believe this is where things changed. she began to hang out with another woman from work pretty frequently until it turned into an affair of some sort (yes, that's not a typo). Pretty sure that she has been brainwashed by the leftist feminist propaganda on all fronts and she turned into a closet feminist of sorts. They now live together and my daughter spends most of her time there.

A lot of the recent discussions around the Alpha Mindset course has gotten me curious again, and I’m starting to go through the material a 2nd time. Mod 4 “Neural Behavioral Conditioning” has really struck a chord with me, especially the part where Paul gives the example of military training. In firearms training, when a mistake is made they signal the issue with “MALFUNCTION” and then proceed to amend the mistake. Rinse and repeat, fix then repeat. Last week I broke up with my LTR, and working on my own mindset around the relationship while deciding if either/both of us are capable of a casual relationship. Since watching the module last night, now when facing a thought of “man this sucks”, immediately catch the “malfunction” and tell myself : NO, this sucks FOR HER. And then a few minutes later I might have another though “this is really sad”, but quickly remind myself : NO, this sucks FOR HER. While my ex is a very special girl with a lot of great qualities, I’ve learned about myself this year that no matter what I’m always going to come out on top. No matter how big the setback, I have the grit and ability to set my ego aside in order to experience massive growth. So when I catch myself having a weak moment, I allow my mind to absorb the thought that yes it sucks if she’s going to be out of my life, but I’m the type of man that will always do better. This is why if we inevitably can’t work through this, it really sucks FOR HER, and I’ll continue to sand down my blind spots and become a better, more attractive and higher SMV man. What do you guys think? Do any members do something similar? Do you think I have a good grasp on the video and how to apply it?