I had been doing so ewhat better with motivation and feeling down. I had a great vacation where I realized I can do the hard things. I also realized I am missing being cared for at times and getting attention. From a surgery 3 yrs. ago and the loss of my husband shortly after my appetite is decreased. All of this has brought backanorexic thoughts and feelings of failing for never hitting my goalyes. I will be seeing a doctor soon about a possible EGD.