Are you being fake āniceā?
During my years as a preacherās wife, I mastered the CHURCH SMILE. You know the one where you can turn from quietly growling at a child and suddenly, āOh heeeeeeey, sis! Iām so happy to see you! How is your mom? Iāve been praying for her.ā I know you have done it. Most of you, Iāve witnessed you do it. ššš But WHY do we do it? Because in a lot of settings, it is not SAFE to FEEL. We canāt say, āIām blazing PISSED and I donāt any to smile.ā Because as absurd as it is, most people donāt think HONEST EMOTION is godly unless it is all roses and sunshine. But is that true? Do you feel separated from God when you are justifiably angry? If I can share anything of value, I hope you hear my voice as you read this: God gets angry. So God is not bothered when you are angry. In fact, God can even handle when you are angry at Him. Life is hard and sometimes it takes us farther than we feel capable of going. Horrible things happen. And it is infuriating when you KNOW God and trust His ability to change the circumstances. God is not mad at us for being angry. And God is not insecure. So, much like my mini-hothead daughterās tantrums donāt stress me, mine donāt make God push me away either. God came especially close when I was in a fury and blamed God for the devastation in my marriage. And I felt safer than ever, even in my rage. āBe angry and sin notā But just know that it is not a threat. Itās wisdom. Definitely a good advice. But it doesnāt mean that God canāt handle it. So letās change this. Instead of putting on the fake smile next time, just be honest. Tell HOW YOU REALLY FEEL. šš«