@Yellow Emperor did the workout and damn whole different feel than lifting weight. I got a bit cocky and tried the 3 finger push up, I mean I’d say I got it done with solid enough form but fuck my fingers hurt. Need some Dan

Here’s my attempt at the 3 finger push up

@Ashe Alieath I understand the feeling emptiness inside very well. For me when I was at my lowest point overweight weed addicted highschooler whenever I had introspective thoughts regarding my toxic environment, toxic behaviour or my future life trajectory it was as if I was standing close to the abyss and slowly walking in step by step. At this point in my life I didn’t have a healthy relationship with my parents or siblings and Covid had hit which got me in a very shut in lifestyle and I lost contact with even the few close friends I had. I had no one who really cared for me as an individual. Yes my parents cared for me but that felt more like a responsibility they were fulfilling rather than something they did of their own accord out of concern and care for me. I felt desperately alone and dived even deeper into web novels and mangas just to escape the reality of what I had turned my real life into. After some time I eventually got into fitness which lead me to a better place mentally. This was my personal turning point as I had finally found a way to take a step away from the abyss rather than towards it. This lit a fire under me I finally made some progress from getting away from the abyss. From their I fell in love with the whole concept of self development where we seek constant growth as individuals. And through the space of self development I was able to learn how to analyze my problems and steps we can take in resolving said problems. I’d say another major catalyst would be my fear of falling back into the abyss is so much stronger than any other feelings that I was willing to try and give anything a chance for the hope that I would develop through said experience just to take even 1 more step away from the abyss

Point to add Everyone’s abyss is different but fundamentally it is a situation or feeling that you don’t want to associate with. My abyss was an overweight drug addicted shut in loser with 0 real word connections. From what I gather ur abyss is the emptiness you feel inside. Now ask yourself do you want to associate with this emptiness feeling for the rest of your life? If no then ur will to change as already begun taking shape. Now what you have to do is constantly nurture and keep that will to change stronger than the obstacles in your way. Just throwing an example of you have social anxiety and ur abyss is ur lack of real world connections you need to nurture ur will to be strong enough to overcome said social anxiety. There are many different ways to go about nurturing ur will and that will be specific to ur situation

@Yellow Emperor nice track makes me feel like I’m on a speedrun lmaooo exactly wht I needed gotta speed run this exam prep as fast as possible

Also viewing from a temporal standpoint you don't really exist. Are you worried how people might feel about you or view you if you did something? Why? there is no reason to even give 2 fucks about that because were all gonna die at some point and with our deaths those memories/feelings you will be erased too. Lets even say because something you did people do view you in a negative light such a negative light that they pass down those memories/feelings about you onto the next generation. Guess what they are gonna die too even even if what you did was horrible eventually as enough time passes those memories/feelings that are holding you back now will be erased. So don't give a fuck about others opinion, do what you want to do. Once again everything should be taken with context sometime someones opinion can be beneficial thats up to you as an individual to develop enough that you are able to discern the good Opinions from the bad one

@Yellow Emperor well said, "So what if we are small? So what if my desires and worries are futile? I don't care, there's no reason to. I don't care about my place in the universe because it doesn't influence me." kinda where i was going with my point but couldn't figure out how to word it. let me try another way. All life inherently is meaningless in the eyes of the heavens. All life will be born, age then die. What you do with your life decides your life's meaning. Some stay isolated and don't build any connections and die. However does that mean said persons life was meaningless. Maybe to you said persons life was meaningless but maybe to him their life was full of meaning. It varies from person to person on what they would consider a meaningful life. But the main point is however you decide to dictate meaning into your own life don't let fears, what if scenarios and the mass peoples opinions be the reason you don't take that step or build a connection with someone if that's something you desire and something that you feel can add meaning into your life.