I must be honest, I struggled with the talking. With how things have unraveled for me and having to learn anything I can in any field to cope with his behavior. And to make sense of things on my own, everything has become conceptual to me. If that even sounds right. His rejection and anger towards God has left my head spinning while I figure out how to continue while knowing what I have known about our relationship and the agreements we made before. Arranged marriage concept.

Which is bringing up LOADS inadequacy feelings

Rad! Next Q Making my word count. I follow through with what I've said, I saw early on that they'll all push to see if I mean it, so I make the file through as reasonable as possible and then I do it if needed. The problem is that he lacks healthy boundaries and will be a whipping post instead of standing in his truth. People pleasing... Which then puts me in a bad light and has made me look unloving and unapproachable because I won't be abused. I've allowed him to chip away at me over the years and I'm drowning now. Things have begun to turn around because for the first time I experienced anxiety which crippled me. He's lived with this, and he has now watched me move through it, integrate, whatever word you choose, in the days and he has opened up to me a lot since this happened 2/3 weeks ago. Which is when I came across Katie's post on Threads of all places. So, the question. How do I move forward while he undermines me daily? I keep boundaries, which is different to unsafe unhealthy walls that keep others out.

In 3 days. Not- in the days

Yes please, a relpay for notes please. I listened the first time while still seeing to the home, even tho it was after 8pm🤦‍♀️ Every point struck a cord, if I'm doing it, I can get better at it. If I'm in resistance to the point, I'd like to see why and work through it.

Example: bed time is 19h30. Lights out by 8. I homeschool, I cook, I clean, I'm it in the house. Yes he definitely helps with most of it, because complaining about getting a job has led me to tell him to rather not help. He's teaching my kids to complain about simple tasks which get performed with me without any issues. I make it fun, music involved, I show gratitude and everyone finishes in a great mood. Back to bed time... the kids get away with getting him to lie by them until ridiculous hours. He's also agreed to make the time to build a relationship with me after bed time, but this doesn't happen. He then complains and makes the kids and me feel bad that 'he can't please everyone' Me getting the routine working allows him time to himself too, he just refuses to see this yet.

I'm honestly so stoked 🫶🏼 3 more days