Wednesday: Honesty Time + Engagement Thread Post
Happy Wednesday, Ladies! I know there's been 2-3 ladies here who have dealt with some trolls, negativity or simply people being mean based on their posts, and after 10 days of prayer, deep thought and reflection, I made a post to stand up for myself for something that came as a shock and also a deep hurt. This will be today's engagement thread post, but I'll also share the story vulnerably here to show you that others' not genuinely knowing us or taking "judgement" from our posts is a reality we all can face. I deal with it at least weekly, but the good always far outweighs the bad. The Saturday after we returned late Friday night from Mexico, we had a family meeting scheduled Saturday morning for something I was so excited about for our family. Something we had researched, prayed about, been reading books about and truly felt was a calling from the Lord. Well, remember my mouth and face swelled up so bad and hurt so much, I couldn't attend. Looking back, it was a blessing. The 45 minute family interview (with only Grant + Croix) ended up being 30+ minutes about my social media. How me exposing my body is seeking attention/sexualizing myself to monetize, and talking about money is chasing success of the world vs. God. Had I been there, I would have been crushed, completely taken off-guard and not prepared to respond to the best of my ability (due to hurt and shocked emotions). I was supposed to be able to meet with them that next week, which we reached out multiple times, never with the option for me to come speak and explain the actuality of my social media and how it's actually both a way I help provide for our family and live out my purpose. But on Monday morning, we got denied without them ever even speaking to me. I kindly responded accepting the deny, but still asked to be able to come in and speak, since all families get the chance to ALL speak/interview. I was told no, wait until next year and try again. I don't know about any of you, but sometimes God has to completely slam a door for me to absolutely know the timing isn't right and it's not something HE has in store for our family right now. The thought that my social media perception alone hurt my entire family and that I was never even given the chance to talk face-to-face does hurt, but I know sometimes when the journey seems harder, more unfair, or like a complete shut off, it can truly be God showing us - NO! OR NO RIGHT NOW!