Insanity = Pipeline to Peace? · Pathway to Peace

Insanity = Pipeline to Peace?

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I’m not sure if everyone has experienced this sensation on their journey to enlightenment. However, for the past few days I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was becoming insane. I was seeing things that were always there, as if they hadn’t been. I was sensing various presences surrounding me, but when I turned around and open my eyes, nothing was there. I was hearing voices instructing me to do things, but I couldn’t pinpoint the location. As well as I felt as if I was floating through space, though I was grounded on this soil. But most importantly, I was feeling an inner peace that I hadn’t felt since I was a child, playing around in their own little world of vibrant colors.

I was wondering to myself, how could I feel so insane, but also as still as the calmest waters? Why was my reality practically melting right before my eyes, and why was I smiling in tranquility at the sight of it? I summed it down to the fact that maybe I finally found the glitch in this reality that I was looking for. I finally concluded within myself that everything that I thought was real, was indeed not.

I like the simplicity of thinking of this three dimensional plane as a video game (as most others do). Like any character that finds itself beyond the bounds of its intentionally generated world, chaos ensues. The background once a beautiful canvas, becomes chaotic, randomized pixels. Random data that was once hidden, becomes obvious. Hidden texts and dialogues that were never meant to be shown, is now apparent. In regards to this illustration, I often like to think of myself as a constructed avatar (hylic), whose initial, sole duty was to follow the orders of the player’s control (Demiurge, Archons, Demons, whatever you may call it), that went berserk from its default programming.

If I were to say it in a way to represent this “reality”, others would view me as insane for not swaying to the collective notion of things. In other words, I would be deemed crazy because I am thinking beyond what is socially acceptable. In essence, I am going against the very nature, of human nature itself— just like a software going berserk from its coding.

The comfort that I feel from my reality unraveling layer by layer, is the assurance that nothing is final. Things are constantly changing, and altering itself. The hardships that was the thorn in my flesh, had become nothing more than temporary, minor inconveniences. Science itself proves it however, energy is constantly moving from state to state. Though now that I have become “insane”, I can see it clearly for myself.

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