I'm 18 and not really sure what to do with my life.
I dropped out of sixth form/ year 12 in April and I just floated around, worked in cold calling sales for 3 weeks, hated that.
After that job in sales I did just plan on going back to another/new college, but a few months back I made the decision to try and make money online. Previously I was sceptical about this and actually found it cringe young guys thought they could make 10k a month online at 16/17. Yes people like say Iman Gadzhi have done it, but I suppose maybe I retained a sense of realism in that for 99.99% of guys this just won't happen/ there is always an outlier.
For example what I notice, in say Kris, Hamza, Mike Thurston etc. is they are all older and have a back story. They almost put in ground and field work in the real world (not this online self improvement space) and became a man before they ever came online, or at least did both at the same time. They had a back story, they were relatable etc. and they didn't just show up out of nowhere driving a lambo at 16 saying they make 10 million dollars a month. Basically they followed a fairly natural development for a man and the male advantage.
However after watching enough of hustle culture content and also speaking to other guys online who were adamant it was possible to become rich and said I just had a weak mindset, my beliefs shifted. I started to believe if you just worked hard enough it was possible
Honestly feels like the worst decision of my life. All these people say work 12 hours a day and all this bullshit. All that happened to me was I started to speak to less and less people. All I would do is just sit inside all day, only ever leave to go to the gym or my part time job. All this time alone has made me really out of shape socially, I can barely speak to anyone and just feel really low and somewhat depressed.
After months of living like this I feel it's taken it's toll. I can't go on like this, So I need to make a change. I guess I could continue with the online stuff while working part time to earn some money, and just speak to more people at the gym etc.
But honestly I just don't feel its working. I feel all this pressure to be the man, the guy who made all this money at 18 and retired his family and travelled the world with his beautiful 10/10. I'm supposed to just hustle up, have high testosterone and work 12 hours a day and build and online business? I don't know, that just feels unrealistic.
I'm honestly thinking of just trying to get a good 9-5 job I at least somewhat enjoy. It would get me out into the real world and give me real world experience. Give me a routine and money. I would be around people. Just actually live an ok life lol with relationships and routine and not be depressed all day because I can't make 10k a month online.
I don't know, that just seems like a crime these days. Maybe I'm just a pussy who didn't work hard enough and gave up.