It’s currently 22:22, I haven’t posted the 2nd blog this week. It hasn’t even been written.
As I’ve finished the day it’s all too easy to let today slip, it’s only one day after all. I’ve been consistent since July, it’s now the end of October. Surely I can miss a day? Nobody actually reads them, nobody will actually notice. Even the people who may notice, they won’t really care if I miss today. So why not just let it go?
Yes nobody is tuning in for these blogs, yes nobody will notice, yes nobody will actually care. Except me. I said from day 1 I’m not missing a day. This is the easiest part of The Library, just writing something twice a week, if I can’t do it now, when the stakes are low, when there is no pressure, when there are no other plates to juggle in The Library. How will I cope when this (hopefully) grows in importance, size and responsibility?
It’s 22:26.
There’s no referencing to philosophers or authors in this post. This is purely to tick the box. We don’t miss a day. I don’t miss a day.
This is a small win, because it shows intent. It’s 22:28 on a Friday night, my post gym meal is cooking, I’d really prefer to relax, to zone out, but no. This HAS to be done. There’s no excuse for not getting a post out.
There’s two reasons I’m getting this post out. 1) Because I said I would. The commitment it this: 2 blog posts every week Tuesday and Friday, and I will honour it. 2) Because every success in my life stems from small wins. From an hour of revision here and there, from just pushing that extra rep to reach failure. It’s the small things.
It’s 22:33. It took 11 minutes to vent my thoughts. 11 minutes I could’ve spent on reels or shorts whilst my steaks cooked. But choosing to write this meant I can continue to say I’ve not missed a day, I’ve kept my word, I’ve done the work when I didn’t feel like it.
I should have prepared more. However, it’s my belief that these small pushes will compound each and every time. If I let it slip this once, I let it slip again, and it’s just not something I’m willing to negotiate.
I will prepare better so this doesn’t happen again. We don’t miss a day.