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Woman

When I was in Bali I received this interesting piece of medicine. There was this young lady/ woman whom I was attracted too. It’s a lot for a guy to go up to someone of the opposite sex and introduce yourself.. ask for their number.. apps in the dating world have numbed us to a large degree I think. I’ve taken it as a sign of the universe that if a woman whom sparks my interest passes by me three times.. then I should go for it face my fear. This happened. I approached her and she was excited to meet me. I invited her over to sit at our table. The other guy I was travelling with immediately was interested too and before I knew it he was asking her out. I felt cheated.. but I didn’t say anything to him. What ensued was this really awkward day where both of us went to all these waterfalls with her and she gave us both attention. I felt stressed afterwards. Furthermore, at the end of the day The guy got the girl to cross the street while I was walking ahead and told me to stay on the other side while he said goodbye to her. The next day We would be leading the retreat for many. I reached out to a friend whom said that I needed to clear the air with him and so I had this hard conversation with him the next morning. I said that he should erase her number and never hang with her… He agreed to not talk to her for a while. Meanwhile things got awkward with her and me.. It was just a hard situation… I felt betrayed by the universe.. a week passed. Eventually the girl stated that she didn’t want to remain in contact. Meanwhile the other guy had invited her to go to this event. He ended up getting to hang with her again.. I never got to even see her again. In this evening’s meditation I was in such nice place.. until the very end when the memory of this situation resurfaced.. It made me kind of sad.. and made me not want this other guy to hang out with this woman. Even though we’re both far away .. the fact that he’s still cordial with her while she’s told me to never contact her again seems unfair. So that came up during this evening’s meditation… I realize and have realized for a bit that I actually in reality don’t care about her.. that’s been a good realization to come too.. still it’s hurt my ego.. trust comes to mind too.. but why did things have to happen that way?.. it seemed quite cruel .. I’m still friends with the guy.., but it still hurts 🙏 .. quite the medicine ..💊

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