So this one was really poignant because in all my side hustle is as a podcaster and I just recently had an interview with a jazz musician who survived pancreatic cancer. And before that I had an interview with a operational psychologist who survived stage 4 lymphoma and I'm thinking there is a. There is a pattern here that the universe is letting me know that. Yes I I have MS. Yes I have certain health issues that I think we could argue that I caused on myself with with my heart and diabetes and and just the way that I've lived my life. And I guess I'm grateful that I'm still here that there's still a spark in me. Sometimes it's dim sometimes. It's a raging fire and I'm grateful for the community here because I forget who it was. But you know I when I was meditating I was clenching my jaw and then somebody said well put your tongue up against the roof of your mouth, your palate and that should help and it has. So I'm grateful for everybody here that has responded to. If I have a question or if I have a concern and I'm grateful for all of you of you being encouraging to me and I want to be encouraging to you so that you can be grateful for me. Hey Julie, for all of you here and grateful to Instagram and tick tock for introducing me to Yogi Brian. And yeah, it's it's a grateful kind of day today so I need to get back and edit a podcast and I'm grateful that I have the ability to do that. So everybody go out there and tackle today and have a good one

So I guess I really don't suffer from anxiety attacks or panic attacks but a low level of anxiety or dread. Always waiting for the other shoe to fall. You know I can't believe that I have a home and a family and you know 2.3 cars and 3.7 cats. And you know we don't have to worry about where our next meal is coming from. Or you know retirement is oh probably a decade away and this year we're celebrating 10 years in our house. And you know we have the 30-year mortgage so we've got 20 to go to pay off and pay it off. And you know with is not going to be a political rant I promise. But you know with the the election and all the emotions and worry and and all that that kicks up. You know my anxiety level has has been higher than normal and I just kind of wish. I mean I voted early. I knew we had early voting and I went ahead and did it on the first day. You could do it but every ad it's not just every other ad but every ad on TV a political one and feels like I can't even escape it. I'm like I already did what I was going to do right now. Go away and it just won't go away so whatever the outcome all that's going to be I'm going to be happy that hopefully this this tension this you know craziness dissipates and and goes away for 2 years. When we do you know elections again and then you know 4 years when we do another presidential election. You know it just seems like okay. I did it. Now I wish and maybe somebody else out there is who's smarter than me or no. Something more than I do. Could just you could put a thing in your TV or what not ice stream. I don't even use cable. You know. Put something in there that says hey. This guy already voted. He doesn't need to see any of this. I can't go change my vote. It's already done so that would be nice. That would. I think that would alleviate a lot of the this stress and anxiety over this election and it's not just this election. This is every election that I've been a part of. You know I always try to make it a point okay. Vote early and then just either you know. Don't watch TV at all because it's going to cost stress or just kind of suck it up. Buttercup and I guess I'm tired of sucking it up buttercup it's it does that doesn't work. And you know I want to know what's going on in the world. But as far as this goes you know as far as election goes I'm done. I already voted. Leave me alone and you know I know people get you know that's their livelihoods is to you know create the ads and create this tension in the world and they have families that they have to take care of. I get it. I understand but at what cost you know? And okay you got to pay a million for a 30 second ad at the super bowl. How many people could that help feed? You know I don't know. I'm just really tired of it and I'm 51 and I probably got a good. I don't know 20 30 maybe 40 years left in me. I've got other things to worry about. You know I act to feed my family. You know make sure they're clothed. Make sure they have a house. Make sure that they have a good life. I have to do that for myself and I'll have to do a good job at work because I help people with financial well-being. You know. Learn you know about finances you know not telling them what to do their finances but just saying hey here's a light bulb. You know you may want to think about this. You know that's my job. I had a friend of mine from college call me out kind of out of the blue and he was like hey Tim, one of the reasons that you're in the position that you're in is because you're empathetic. Yes, you hate people but you like individuals and you like hearing their stories and I do like hearing of people stories. I like hearing the individual stories. My wife has me pegged perfectly up on my wall. It says that's what I do. I pet cats. I hate people and I know things. I'm good with people. I'm not. I am not good and this whole social media thing is weird for me as I'm just like and everyone else is like this is my line and after while becomes just static so I don't know and this is kind of how I journal everyday too is when I do these guys meditations and then I come here and and in general frame to download all my comments and and so that way I can just kind of turn it into a journal and then you know when I pass I can give it to my kids and they can see what was going on in their crazy Father's head. I don't know these are questions that are above my page. I'll just leave them before now. But anyhow, thank you for about reading through this rant and I hope you all had a great meditation. Want to try to use this for when stuff becomes a little too much. Thanks!

So while I've been doing the meditation now for oh my God, 63 days really whoa. I started doing working with a personal trainer as you all know last month and recently going to check up on my doc and he's taking me off of the high blood pressure medication and the diabetes medication and recommended I go see a cardiologist which I happen to have an appointment with on Monday at 2:00. So while I've been doing this personal training and you know swimming, you know I've been pushing it everything 5 days a week and then leaving my weekends to be what they're supposed to be which is resting. I've been sore. Oh my God and this Saturday morning I'm not sore. It's like feels good not to be sore today and this meditation really. It's funny because I'm not sore this morning, but I knew to this meditation to remind me that I'm not sore this morning. So that's nice seeing a cardiologist on Monday. Yeah anxiety is a little ramped up but I'm going to be fine. It's you know we're not doing anything crazy. We're just getting the baseline stuff and finding out you know if everything's okay with my heart and you have a kind of a history with heart disease and the family. So we will see what they say and what goes on and we'll face it when we face it. You know I can't. I can't worry about it right now and logically and spiritually and whatever whatever. Lee, I can't do anything about it now, so we're just going to FaceTime on Monday when it happens and we'll work it from there that way. But for today I'm not sure and that is really good for me. So thank you very much for helping me find the door to my garden. And can I do some weeding? Oh my gosh, you know I've let this thing get pretty lot of a lot of weeds in there that you know we need to to take out and to a trim back and maybe turn them into beautiful flowers. We'll see. We'll see how that goes. All right. Have a good day everybody. Thank you so much

So yeah today was a good meditation. I really liked all of the animal references Yogi Brian, are you telling us that you want to open a zoo or something here? Cuz getting a lot of animals and that's it's kind of interesting. I like it my hippopotamus but where my hippopotamus ass cheeks are twitching with Glee. Anyhow, yeah the idea of setting boundaries is really because I like to help people and you know I like to be there for my friends and all. But I'm always telling people that you got to take care of yourself first before you can help anybody else. And I'm trying to impart that to my kiddos and it's easy to say to other people. It's difficult to do it for yourself so I was laughing throughout this whole meditation. It was great. It reminds me of my personal trainer whenever we get you when we get together on Tuesdays and Thursdays. It's a laugh fest. We have a great time. You know teasing each other and joking around talking about my back hair and my hip upon themas butt and all that kind of good stuff and it's just I know it's stuff that needs to be done. Just like you know on the meditation needs to be done and when it's fun it's a lot easier to turn it into a habit and to change yourself to be the person that works out 5 days a week. The person that meditates 7 days a week. The person that learns French 7 days a week. The person that does brain training games 7 days a week. So which you know is these are all better things to be doing with my time. Unfortunately, I'm a guy that has to work a regular 9:00 to 5:00 5 days a week. It is what it is so thank you all for this. I hope you guys get something out of it. I know I certainly did and have a great day everybody

So I guess you're trying to tell us that you know we should probably read so so and I didn't and I was like a lot of other people and I was like where? Where is it? Where is it? Where's my 90-day meditation? I've been keeping up and while some of you read this just put like the last sentence there in a very high-pitched and worried voice but it kind of tells me that. Yeah no this is. This is what I do now. You know this is I would miss it if it wasn't here, which is a very good marketing is a very charged word. But I look at marketing like Seth godin looks at marketing and you know we all opted into this. This is permission marketing and I have you know no problem with that. I think it's A-Okay. And yeah what would I do if I didn't have this? I you know probably go back and be miserable and hating everybody and everything which you know I still do but I I hate things in a better and more positive outlook and light so I'm very happy it makes how where it's set up with a 90-day thing is set up now. Kind of makes more sense I guess. But let's get back to talking about kangaroos. I was giggling throughout this whole thing. You know I don't know what it is about kenaries they just make me giggle. Maybe I was a kangaroo and a past life or a kangaroo comedian in a past life. I don't know it. Just tickles my funny bone and I am glad that I was here for today's meditation. I had a really intense pool workout today and I got through it. My last lap wasn't pretty at all and I was fighting it and I was breathing heavy and and you know my stomach was a little churned up there that was hoping. I wasn't going to puke all over the pool but it fel really good to be able to push through all that. And I'm using the breathing that I'm being taught in here for my breaststroke and even my personal trainer was like yeah, keep on doing that you're breathing for your breaststroke looks really good. I'm not an Olympic swimmer by any stretch in imagination. I'm not you know Mike Phelps but I give the people there at the YMCA or run for their money so I'm happy with that. I'm sorry this post is so long but yeah I'm just bouncing around from subject to subject like a freaking kangaroo. Anyhow, I hope you all find where these meditations are and have a great meditation today. Have a good one folks thank you