I want to prove to myself that debt is not as challenging to take on as I fear that it is.

@Matthew Paetz gotta look past the cheese!

@Matthew Paetz The father / son connection is what gets me the most. That rocked me.

I'd love to see this become both an online forum and occasional in-person gathering. Its two different pressure points. There's immediacy in-person where online is more of an examination or time for self-reflection. They would couple well together like a ( I'll let you guys enter here whatever your favorite food / drink combo is).

Self-Sabotage is my nemesis. I've notice in the past I may have blamed others for sabotaging me, but when I would settle into it and be in a place of acceptance most of the time I can point the finger right back at me in the end. The behavior that holds me back is this mental fuckery that occurs after something good happens. For example, in a meeting I was looking forward to for two months I felt was going really well. As I walked out of the building to my car, I could literally feel that move through me like a cloud and the storm was coming in. That whole ride home I obsessed that it could have gone better. It got so bad I had to pull the car over and let it pass. I can be my absolute worst enemy. How does that hold me back now? I've had many clear examples when I am lighter in these situations that I get the things I want. Call that whatever you want - manifestation, energy attraction, etc. When I beat myself up, nearly 100% of the time what I desired doesn't come to fruition.

My first instinct was to select integrity or respect. I noticed that no one selected freedom, and it didn’t resonate with me either at first, so I wanted to explore that for a moment. I’m selecting it because I think freedom is deeply personal. In some ways, it’s why we gather—or why we’re here in this group. For me, it’s an untethering from habits, opinions I no longer need to hold, and feelings toward individuals I feel wronged me or wronged people I love. Freedom gives me the opportunity to start fresh. Personally, if I’m not putting in the work to frequently clear the slate, respect and integrity can become muddied. My worst habits feel easier to slip into. If I don’t peel back those opinions, it’s harder to get to the truth. If I don’t free myself of lingering feelings that no longer serve me or others, am I holding myself back? Am I holding hostage the people I feel wronged me? So for me, it’s the pursuit of freedom that allows me to do everything else to the best of my ability.