Love this! So... This group is really making me think... When I was a child, I had a beautiful singing voice. My parents used to want me to sing for people when we saw them out and about or when people visited. I hated it. It conflicted with a belief I had formed bery early on that it wasn't safe to be seen. (I've since reprogrammed that!) But at the time my way out was to sound as ridiculous as I could so they wouldn't want to hear me. I never sang nicely again. Interesting stuff!

ok! So your lightbulb moment gave me a lightbulb moment! (Gosh I love that!) I was very much the same way as you- standing up for others. In fact, I was fierce about it. I didn't just stand up against the bullies, I was determined to give them a taste of their own medicine. At home, I was known as the kid with 'no filter'. I was confrontational and argumentative. If someone needed telling off, I was the one to do it! And yet- speaking up to talk about what I do- I turn into a meek little puff of insecurity. (and now, I'm thinking about this story in the light of what I do... and this is interesting. I've never even thought of this before.) AND one of the reasons I gravitated here is because I feel like my presentating voice and mannerisms need so much work. I can't think straight or maintain eye contact. I flutter my eyes( which bugs the crap out of me!) and my mind goes blank. But I could debate the topic with laser precision if someone got confrontational with me. I will say though that I DO enjoy discussing it with people I'm not selling it to. Lol. I am a very passionate person and tend to get all excited - but even then I think I come off ... well... not the way I'd prefer to. Not as an expert. SO NOW I have it on my to do list to go through my process with this and uncover the root cause of this. But thank you for posting this!!!

I feel like I want several of the options, but I picked the one I need the most urgently. lol

I am lurking... 👀 But I can do level 2. lol