Pain Is Your Biggest Motivator - Use it!
Bullying made me the person that I am today and bullying will lead me to greatness. Of course, my life was terrible when I used to get bullied at the ages of 9-12. I still remember the bad gut feeling I had when I went to school. Maybe you can relate to that feeling. I was so scared that the other kids would pick on me again that I stayed home for days without leaving my bedroom, cuddling with my favorite teddy bear and crying, trying to forget my bad reality. The reason I got bullied was because I was such an easy target. I was weak, I acted weak, I looked weak and I was a loner. I didn’t have the strength to defend myself and because no one else was there for me it was a walk in the park for my bullies. I remember that they used to push me around, one guy even spat in my face and once I got pushed in front of a bus, luckily the bus driver stopped driving otherwise I maybe wouldn’t even be here anymore. Back then I was hoping that the bus would hit me and then I die. They stole my lunch box and my lunch money because they said I ate enough food for the rest of my life because you know, I was so obese. Those were the hardest and darkest days of my life and I thought ill never make it out of this hell so instead I escaped into porn, video games, and junk food which made my situation even worse. One day I finally had enough. Years of pain had built up inside of me and now I had to make a decision. 1. continue to drown in pleasure and try to escape my problems 2. improve myself and destroy my bad addictions Something flipped the switch in me. You’re going to waste your whole life. You’re going to waste so much potential, what about the goals you wanted to achieve? What about your dream body, what about your dream house? What about retiring your mum? Wake up. Marlon, you have to change. And that’s exactly what I did. My primary motivator is pain. Pain is the only reason why I am where I am today. The pain moved me forward and pain improved my life. You might have heard of the saying the adult protects the child and that’s exactly what happened in my case. My inner child got bullied, abused, and traumatized which got buried deep inside of me and so did my inner child. My body and mind still act and think like I’m getting bullied like I’m in danger. But you know I’m not, everything is amazing. The problem is that my trauma is in my unconsciousness, which now drives me to improve myself.