THE LONE WOLF — YOU CAN’T OUTRUN YOURSELF 🐺 I spent most of my life wanting to escape. I wanted away from people, away from the noise and away from everything that seemed to want something from me. I could be standing in a room full of people, smiling, talking and pretending I was part of it, when really all I wanted was to get away and be by myself. But here’s what I never understood. When I finally got away from everyone, I still wasn’t alone. My head came with me, and fuck me, it was loud. I was tired, but not the kind of tired that sleep fixes. I was tired of thinking, tired of feeling, tired of being needed and tired of pretending I was okay when half the time I didn’t even know what okay was supposed to feel like. For years drink shut it all up. When the drink went, I found other ways. Work, my phone, keeping busy, helping people, always being needed. Anything that meant I didn’t have to stop long enough to sit with myself. For years I thought the world was exhausting me. What I didn’t realise was how exhausted I was from trying to escape myself. That was my cage. Nobody had locked me in there. The truth is, I didn’t even know I was in one. Then eventually I stopped running. Not because I became spiritual or suddenly had life worked out. I was just tired. I couldn’t keep running anymore. So I started sitting still. And when I did, feelings started coming up that I’d spent years trying not to feel. Sadness, fear, loneliness, love. Some of it I couldn’t even put a name to. Then I became curious. What is all this? What have I been running from all these years? And who the hell am I when there’s nowhere left to hide? That’s why this quote means so much to me. No amount of distraction can reconnect us with ourselves. Eventually the Lone Wolf has to stop running. Eventually you have to turn around and meet the one person who has been there through every single bit of it. You. Maybe that’s where the journey home really begins. 🐺 Charlie Morrison Master Recovery & Wellbeing Coach