So i like this girl who goes to my school. After talking to her for some time I told her i liked her. She said she likes me too but want's to get to know me better first. She's not that much of a texter and takes hours to respond. Yet she shows some level of interest and tells me of all the things we could go do together. Like go to the gym together, i go to her volleyball games and she wants to go to my basketball games. Where i'm confused is she never initiates anything. Sometimes i feel like I'm almost forcing her to talk to me in a way. In person she's kinda quiet and shy. Over the past week i kinda became a simp... Always texting her, thinking about her, ect. She's more relaxed and i'm over here overthinking things. Now i'm not sure if she's turned off by me or if she's still interested. She's been kinda distant and it truly doesn't feel like she's the one chasing me. She acts like she likes me but then all of a sudden acts as if I'm just another friend. Maybe it'll take time for her to warm up to me idk. I want to get to know her on a deeper level. I desire intimacy and a partnership. I want to build someone up as they build me up. I'm so confused on whether she really likes me or if she's just saying that. But I must also rememember to "Choose the woman who chooses you."
My plan is to rededicate myself to my purpose and pay her less attention. I was allowing her to take real estate in my mind and i made her my focus. Not anymore. Now I'm trying to only think about my purpose whether she acts interested or not. It's her turn to show me how badly she wants ME. What are your guy's thoughts? I just feel really anxious and nervous which is super bad for me and very feminine. I will have to wait and observe her. It's gonna hurt because I'll have to wait, unknowing whether it's gonna work out or not. Or maybe it can work out but it'll take longer before it feels like a relationship. How can I break this cycle of cumpulsively thinking about her and being anxious around her? How can i ground myself in more masculinity? -Greyson