Welcome to another episode of 'Me giving advice as my mom chases me to study." So today's one is more of a life advice and less of an academic one. Why did I think of this? Here's why- I went to a debate competition today. As a nervous fella, I usually stutter a lot when under pressure, yet today I did so well that even I was surprised. My team was in the proposition with lots of good arguments and I myself pointed out almost all of their arguments and proved them wrong, while my other teammates also pointed out their some. Our opposition team made mistake after mistake. They didn't answer my Point of information or question which usually deducts marks, they couldn't finish in their given time, which also deducts marks, their 3rd speaker started speaking in the motion's proposition and said sorry in the middle of the debate for doing so and they didn't utter the main concept of the debate and went along with only explaining that one word. In the end, the opposition team cried cause they didn't do well. But guess what? They won. Even they were surprised at how they had won. The judges gave pieces of advice before our results and most of them were for the opposition team as they made many mistakes. The funny thing is, the judges even praised our 2nd speaker and me the 3rd speaker. I mean like how? Anyway, the main point is life is unfair. There is nothing you can do but move on. p.s. this feels more like a rant and less like advice, now that I read it.🤡

You know, there's certain things that when you look at them they look so simple yet, we just don't want to accept the simple things. For example, when I see someone doing something very basic in a field I've worked on before, in my head, I'm like, omg, that's so cool and I see me in him and it's almost like a very endearing feeling and if they come up to me, it makes me so happy. But at the same time whenever I'm doing something new and I have to start small with something more basic, I feel embarrassed to tell anyone cause, in my mind, I'm like oh, but no one's going to think it's cool, this is not good at all. But I know that's not true, they probably feel the same thing as I do whenever I meet someone like that. Another example is doing things, right. A few months ago, I saw like these people like @Chinnu B , @Crown Mare , they were posting like book reviews and I was like, hey, they're so cool, they're so great, I don't even read books, they're totally on a different level. But that's just simply not true, at some point in the past, they were probably the same as me, they also had a day where they picked up their first book, maybe it was before me, maybe they read fast but at some point, they were in the same stage as me and you, and infact I still don't read 1 book a week, I take 1 book, I don't even try to read like 1 chapter a day, if I'm feeling good, I real multiple chapters if I'm not feeling good, I just read 1 paragraph and that's it, some days, when I'm busier, I don't even read. So, does that make me a really good reader like them? Probably not, so what, if I read even 1 book in like say not even a month, like 3 months, that's 4 books an year, in 3 years, I'll know about a whole dozen of books and then I can call myself a reader and like the first example, if I were to tell a good reader that, oh, I read like half book, they probably couldn't care less about comparing my not even 1 book level to them, they'll be like, oh, yeah, that's great and again, we know these stuff yet we just don't accept them.

My schedule has somewhat quieted down, and I feel that there is enough time in my routine to read a book every ~two weeks. Should I start writing/recording book talks again? If there's as much as one person who would benefit from this, I'll continue.

I have a lot of goals I want to achieve and stuff and I try my best to put in on my schedule. But i eventually end up prioritizing other things and spending more time on it, even though I want to do these things and they're important to me. How do I stay good at some other things I'm doing while adding in the new things withou being sleep deprived 😭

For the past few days, I've been working hard as finals are near and I have to study a lot. As well as practice my piece for the concert which is also not that far away. And work on my newsletter, draft article, finish all those writings, assignments, and a ton more. So, after designating every hour of my day to some work and really creating a schedule that forces me to focus at all times, I noticed a pattern. Whatever I do, if I do it first thing after school or early in the morning or basically at any beginnings, I tend to fall in love with that, I keep working and lose track of time and I just keep going and it feels so amazing. On the other hand if I stop even for some time say after 10 mins, I look at my phone for just 5 mins, it changes everything, I'm not longer 100% doing what my intentions were, instead I find my mind wondering off into many directions. What I found interesting though is that although I did competitively get more done in the first scenario, if I enter the second scenario, the opposite happens, I don't get as much done but along the way of doing my tasks, my mind wonders off to such amazing places and I find all these amazing ideas and patterns and feelings and answers that are just impossible to find with a pen and a paper and I love the feeling it leaves me with, there's no base, nothing to guide me, no connection between each thought, our mind is just so amazing and beautiful. These new discoveries you make, they're not some big new ground breaking discoveries, they've always been there yet we just forget about them, never see them, they're just simply amazing. So moral of the story, when you try and try to be intentional about trying and acknowledge your imperfections, you're almost promised to always be left with great outcomes.