Journaling with Lesson 30

Jan 31 (edited) in Feed

Beloved One, how much joy do you honestly choose to See about You? Or would your mind rather project experiences of suspicion, fear, frustration, blame, shame and guilt, lack, loss and limitation? When I say, “would you rather,” I do mean this to be a definitive choice—as the definitions only arise from the mind with which you play.

Yes, one can blame the thinking mind for these conditions and not the personal self. That said, the personal self is most frequently involved in agreement with these perceptions. The personal self is the conduit through which the perceptions are made manifest and the evidence supporting these perceptions are confirmed. The body’s eyes do not know of ‘tragedy;’ however, the thinking mind first confirms the possibility, labeling tragedy as existing by certain means or ways. Then as the body’s eyes see, the mind attempts to fit the evidence into the matching representation. Thereby, while all bodies can agree that ‘tragedy’ exists, this experience is not the same for every body, at equivalent times.

Yes, these ‘defining moments’ happen seemingly instantaneously – as quick as breathing or blinking, but there is a process, nonetheless. Begin to notice this process and your experience of body-time-self becomes more still, while the radiance of your reacquainting with Self beholds a quickening.

The world’s witnesses can show you all identifications that the mind thinks it wants. Just take a look at ‘the news’ and your thoughts will get all the presumed ‘confirmation’ they need. This is why, in our unlearning together, we must pay direct attention to the thoughts that we perceive. Let us look at our illusions together, so that we can choose again beyond them. Let the thinking mind bring forth its witnesses. Let them march in front of you like the tin soldiers they are in time. Together, we use these revealed play things for your gain, identifying their lack of strength. We watch as they quickly tumble together in line. Their tiny guns and disorganized moves, can affect you no longer.

Today, as you practice, take a deep breath and still your mind. Then, with the body’s eyes closed, center your inner Eye upon your Heart center. Continue to breathe deeply and steadily, opening inward, further and further. Allow yourself to feel deeply connected to the inner Self. You will know this connection by its witnesses: a profound sense of joy, stillness without disturbances such as anxiety or surface distraction. Each of these truer witnesses for your Peaceful Being will rise from the intention to Know Thyself.

The stillness will overtake self limiting thoughts from circulating at your thinking mind’s forefront. The cacophony of busyness, will go from loud distraction to mild buzzing to wholehearted silence, further and further into the distance, as you allow and choose this True Beingness. When you feel settled in a peaceful heart and mind [take as long as you need] simply state within, “I ask to See Source in All.”

Do not focus on the words inserted as much as the acknowledgment of choosing Love’s Sight above your own. Let your dedication to the choice for Awareness be committed. Even if the words are reduced simply to “See Source” or clearer yet “See,” feel the word(s) echo through you with a force of absolute pronouncement. Declare firmly and resolutely. Hold on with ‘both hands’ in gratitude. If temptation arises, returning you to mindless thought, there is no penalization. You, in being still, have succeeded. Simply begin again when you are ready for as long as you can or do. Try to practice now.

Okay, so you may have fallen asleep a bit in time there; that’s okay. Beloved, sleep was needed for your body to feel renewed. There is much ado in your current goings on and a lot the identified self is processing. You are tired. Again, I have no penalty box for unsung students or hapless meditators (smile). Distraction does not matter as much as determination. The moments we spend together are only to Guide you through a perceived self to a Impermeable Self, outside of time. Therefore, time, as your mind perceives it, cannot actually delay your steps in perpetuity.

The choice to See, even if seemingly again and again, is a reward beyond the seeming reach of time, Together, we bring Light to every darkened corner, loosening a misbegotten minds grip on selective reality. Do the practice and Know Thy Self. Only an Unwavering Self awaits you. Do not dismay. In fact, by asking and choosing to See Source in All, your steps will naturally become lighter, your brow will be less furrowed and your thoughts without terror. As practice continues, you will breeze through some of the more seemingly disturbing circumstances of the world, not by apathy but by firmness in the Truth beyond the forms. The welling up of emotion you feel is not to be plugged up or repressed, but set free. This advancement can only be a blessing upon your experience of time.

Yes, Beloved, Source and connection with Same-Self-Source is in the Mind that chooses to Know Thyself, Seeing clearly beyond any misbegotten claim of temporal confusion. You may begin to see the edges of Light appear about you, not as much as visible light in form, but a firm joy and bubbly radiance in your Awareness increasingly throughout your day.

Do not expect to experience this type of sight as a visual perception in body terms, like a hallucination where one person sees and another does not. That type of experience would be too distracting for your functioning. Could you imagine, “excuse me a minute, I’m seeing tiny cracks of light everywhere. Be right back.” (laughter) The words or descriptions the Course uses can be misinterpreted by a thinking mind using worldly happenings as its understanding. Then life experience and spiritual practice insights fear. “Oh no! What do I do if I’m at work and the cracks of light begin to appear??? Then what??” (laughter) This type of distraction or concern is never our intention. Let these thoughts go.

The Light we speak about is indeed an inner Knowledge. Again, see not these descriptions as a measurement of your ‘success,’ ready to compare one travelers advancement to another’s. Love reveals as One. Beloved One, this is a Journey without distance or judgment. Wherefore, no seeming point levels. Evaluation of your progress is not any accurate representation of your Self. Put down these distractions. Simply Be in the moment and let the Awareness speak for your Self. Let the adventures be Done.

A natural Joy of Beingness is how all Self Sees. You need not worry if or when your mind may ‘get there.’ Be in the moment and not in time or attempted determination. Simply Be as you are and call your wandering mind back a million times if necessary. Counting them will only lead to exhaustion. Celebrate success by the noticing of delight as you seem to experience a world about you. Truly, truly that within a Self is Enough. The allowance for commitment to Your Beingness is what is of utmost importance now… and now.. and now. Whether quickly catching yourself in a moment of exuberance, misery or outburst of frustration and sorrow, do not delay any longer than you begin to notice. Let these witnesses then be your calls to Greater Seeing. Standing more alert to where you perceive yourself to exist. Then breathe and release, return and abide, rest, accept and trust in the Holiness of Love as your Guide. You got this!

Love Is.

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