I posted my first video after an intense dopamine rush following and exciting evening at the local merchants association. Then i went dark... what happened to all the excitement? It was overwhelmed by a tidal wave of self doubt and insecurities. Whether or not i had enough and or was capable of even making a marginal imprint. I rested, meditated and then said to myself, "Nah you're too lit for all this negativity brother. Calm yourself and list out what you have to offer and why you will find value here. My Background I am South African born and i currently reside in Florida Professional background as a intern for Multi-choice Telecoms out of high school, worked at The Creative Counsel for 2 years and then went on to culinary school where i did so well i was offered opportunity to come to the Unite States. As much as i loved food, the industry wore me down and i became someone who I did not recognize. So i took an insanely stupid risk and with the support of my family left the industry. I was already on the journey to content creating when the switch happened so I knew I loved what I was creating with a camera vs a knife. Current Challenges- $$$🤢🤮 My bank account is sick and has been throwing up money. Current Positives. I am a solo independent content creator on youtube. Learned graphic design. I established a clothing business and merchandise for my brand I learned how to build basic web pages myself in 6 months Edit long and Short form content. Shoot long and Short form. Created a podcast. I am multi - passionate, meaning my ADHD makes me fall insanely deep into rabbit holes of learning and discovery. I have been told too many time to count this year that i have too many things going on and need to slow down. I vehemently disagree!! I created assets within myself worth millions of dollars by improving my eduction and skills on a wide array of subject matter. I created for myself where others outsourced. i built my assets (biosites/Shopify/Podcast/meta/content-scheduling/editing/garment production).