Throughout my life I always said I was going to quit porn but I never actually took it as seriously as I should have. I did something that pretty much no one has the balls to do. I asked for help in real life about my addiction. When I was 15, I grew the testicular fortitude to sit my entire family down and told them what they already knew but what I didn't want to admit. "I watch porn." And as crazy as it sounds, I found out that day that my own family watches porn. Apart from my mom, everyone in my household indulges in pornography DAILY. I was in genuine shock when I heard about it. My brother watches porn. My father watches porn. Even my little sister watches porn (and she was 9 at the time). And you know what they said? "It's okay to watch porn" Now at the time I thought "whew, cool, there's nothing wrong with watching porn. I can relax now. After all it's just a phase." But holy fuck, looking back I can't believe how fucked that whole situation was. I can't help but imagine this bird's eye view of seeing everyone in my house just spazzing out, sweaty underneath the covers at 9AM. All coping at the same time saying "yknow, masturbating isn't bad, it's actually healthy for you." That's probably happened multiple times before and yet no one talks about it. We all pretend like it's normal. My brother went to the ER because of this. He was fapping too much and it caused a tear somewhere in his penis and it started profusely bleeding. He says it didn't hurt, but holy shit I still can't believe that happened. And he has a girlfriend btw. My dad is married for 18 years too. And they still do this Porn made me absolutely hate my life. I still remember the day I was on the floor crying in my kitchen after confessing to my girlfriend that I watch porn daily. I'm so lucky that she didn't leave. Even though I didn't deserve her, I was given a second chance. People in my school would be fapping all the time and they'd proudly talk about how much they fap. They proudly objectify women and talk about how much they love (insert girl here)'s ass. People on reddit would make fun of nofappers because they saw it as this weird cult of people. They said that there's no benefit to quitting porn and that your dick will go limp and you'll lose all drive after 90 days.