My name is Makaiya, I'm 17, from Edmonton Alberta, and I'm trying to focus on self love because I always search for the love I can't give myself in other people, often becoming to reliant on those around me. I want to know how to become the person that I want to befriend, I want to be what I need. I have never been okay with just being on my own and I really want to figure out why. I love to socialize but it makes me painfully nervous becauseI always ask myself who would want to talk to me, hang out with me, or even be friends with me I have so many problems and really nothing to offer. The same goes for romantic relationships, I want to be able to give as much as I take from someone . I just want to become what I want so I don't have to search for it someone else, putting all the weight on the them to make me happy. I Know I'm still young and everyone says give it time but I think about cutting that time short everyday and I wanna stop. It feels like I'm breaking down and picking apart my youthful perspective. Being young is so chaotic. Social media either justifies our repeated damaging behaviors as okay or tells us all the thing we should do to get better. If it were as easy as following a few steps everyone would feel better in no time, but it's not. I seek guidance in a world that's also lost as of right now, I don't know where to go or who to ask.