should I always wait to recall on cannon wave even if I'm low hp?

I'm a midlaner who used to be a Neeko OTP but switched to Aurora when she came out If I'm playing ranked I can play Sivir mid if we need AD but otherwise it's Aurora (or Neeko if she's banned) I used to watch a lot of league YouTube so I have a decent understanding of what different roles do and how to play them My mechanical skill is terrible, I suck at CSing, and I'm not confident at identifying winning trades so I don't go for them that much which usually results in a 0 KD laning phase My macro is pretty good and I can make correct calls 90% of the time, but my lack of mechanical skill often means that I can't do anything about it I mostly play quickplay because normal draft has no role guarantee and my CSing poorly in ranked is frustrating for both me and my team

My secondary role is top not because I want to play top, but as a way to get my preferred role of mid. What champion can i play top to not sabotage my team?

whether I win or lose lane the jungler is constantly in my lane making it difficult for me to push do I just have to lose the game because of this?

Does anyone have any resources to help me as a new ADC with wave management? I am constantly being told things like slow push, fast push, crash the wave, freeze the wave, get prio, etc etc, and I dont really know how to do any of that. Like I know to freeze the wave I need 4 caster minions, but there's only 3 in a wave? Any help, articles, videos, etc is appreciated!