November 4, 2024 (Time flies, doesn't it?)
I don't have a book review for you guys, but I still felt like writing. I want to capture a feeling. The night is pitch-black: trees once visible in the day are now shrouded in darkness. You are alone on the street, save for the occasional passing headlights. Your lights illuminate a portion of the road ahead, and then it's darkness again. It is a strange feeling-- you feel the nostalgia of the past, and burden of the present, all at once. Once upon a time, you were the child gazing out of the window, looking at the trees and long grass whisk by. Now you are at the wheel, yet it feels as if nothing has changed. Memories fade; everything fades. The universe will continue increasing in entropy, until eventually all stars, life, energy smoothes out into the continuous blanket of space. At the end of time, there will be no signs that life, stars, and galaxies even existed. Here, nothing will happen, and it will keep not happening, forever. Why do I bring this up? Do I want to give you an existential crisis? Yes. Yes, because questioning your existence proves that you are alive: that you still care about the world. The greatest enemy of our generation is not social media, AI, war, or poverty: it is apathy. The moment we stop caring about things-- even the little, pointless things-- is the moment we give up our humanity. Brain cells degenerate: neurological pathways become abandoned. Time forces us to forget. One day, you will forget your childhood entirely. Forgetting is sad, but it is the price we pay for living. Because being able to live is greater than having to forget. Living fully-- being able to experience life in its entirety-- that is a gift. Living fully means to accept it all. Not just the happy moments, but also the sad moments, and the moments where you feel existential anxiety. These little moments are more powerful than a thousand memories, because memories fade, but existence does not. To be alive is to be able to feel: to experience. Life is suffering, but it is also happiness. Life is painful, but also rewarding. Life is great.