"Chinnu Is Back Too" - Chinnu

“Haha, Chinnu bro left Skool! Hehe, we can take the top spot on the leaderboard now,” — Rudaiba and Dan plotting

“Ahh, excuse me? Is this the betrayal I get? Heh, so sad. But, you know, good luck with that. I doubt I’ll be around for long anyway, especially in December… Ahh, yeah, I need to stay safe here,” — Chinnu

“Heh, whatever, you c***p,” — Rudaiba

“Why am I here? Hello? What’s happening?” — Dan

It has been so long since I last read a good book, and yes, it’s been over a month since I posted about books. I know, I’m sorry, but I just can’t manage it right now. I’ve already reached my limits with AP classes, and I have extracurriculars on top of that. Each blog post takes me 1 to 1.5 hours to write and another hour to find the best images. And that’s not even counting the time needed to read the book—which is just… ahh, NOOO. So yeah, my schedule is at its peak, and I can’t take on more.

I was discussing this with my confidant about how we tend to neglect the things that make us happiest. For example, if you have a meeting at 5 PM but your best friend texts you to hang out, you might say no to your friend because you have a meeting. You decline your friend because they understand you and your situation better than someone you’re meeting online for the first time. Or let’s say you have plans with your friend at 8 PM, but someone from an internship asks if you can meet at the same time. You’d tell your friend you can’t make it but not the interviewer, because your friend understands and is flexible, while the interviewer doesn’t care as much. Similarly, I need to reduce my time writing blogs because I know you all understand the other commitments I have on my plate.

As for what I’ve been up to, let’s focus on the highlights:

I have a question for you: How much trust can you have in a person, and how much trust do you receive in return?

Is it the kind of trust where you’d share any password imaginabe, Google, bank accounts, anything? Can it be so profound that they share every aspect of their life with you? So much that they seek your opinion and feel comfortable showing you any of their conversations?

It’s a wonderful feeling to have such deep trust in someone, and if there’s someone you trust that much, let them know. They will feel incredibly happy to hear it, and I’m sure they trust you just as much.

School is messy.

Don’t worry if you didn’t get the score you wanted this time. It’s fine, and I know you might be thinking, “What do you mean, fine? I don’t like my grades and so on.” But listen, take 5 or even 2 minutes to sit and think about why you didn’t get the grade you wanted. Just reflect on it. Did you find a cause? What is it? Why did it happen? Where is it coming from? Can you fix it? Is it controllable or not? Then, talk to your teacher about it—they will understand. In the end, they don’t gain anything if you fail their class, so they’ll try to help you achieve the best grade possible. Sharing what you’re going through is such an awesome thing to do.

Happier than ever

Since the start of this year, I’ve been happier than ever. I’ve met new people who mean more to me than anything I own. I’m getting more opportunities, talking to teachers, and even struggling in my classes—but I’m figuring out the causes and fixing them as I go. It’s just such a nice year to be in. I love it.

The person

You know, there’s always that one buddy you can be with—talk all day, every day. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I mean, I almost always talk to her in my bio class. That doesn’t mean I’m not listening to the class or don’t care about it. I do; I just take extra time outside of class to study. Because I can only talk to her during that time, and she wouldn’t be happy if I didn’t. But that doesn’t mean I’m neglecting my academics. In a way, maybe a little, but I also review everything later. It’s just so nice to be with her. With all these things on my mind, I should be super stressed and really busy. But I’m not—I’m happier than ever. And I feel stressed when we don’t talk. Whatever it is, it makes me feel happy and better. I see people giving me side glances when I start typing, but really, I know my limits on how much chatting is too much, and I’ll stay within them. So don’t worry too much.

Yeah, that’s it. I’d love to hear how your life is going. Come on, be a bit detailed. See, I wrote a lot today, so I need to read a lot to balance it.

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