It is sad when, the people who are the frontliners of these teachings work against what’s being taught.. in reality, I don’t believe Buddhism is a teaching, as it’s a way of life.. 🙏🏽 I feel to share, some experiences that don’t feel authentic to Buddhism. 🙏🏽
Since my childhood, I have always thought sharing to be the way of living' as Buddhism is.
Whilst in primary school in Kenya, I gave my lunch and bought food for others with my bus fares and walked 10km every day to school, and back.
I went to live in Bodhgaya last July 2022 as my heart was really craving to visit there, I lived there for 9 months and just returned to Gujrat in April.
I couldn't understand why I felt pangs of pain and crying when visiting Mahabodhi temple and few other temples nearby. I saw how what is being taught is not being followed by the temples themselves,
Few monks I spoke to, had asked for money for medications, I met with a couple of monks for a cup of tea in public places and discussed about power of mind and inner healing and how I had healed from my spinal disease and paralysis from stroke' our own knowledge within us that guides us, instead of taking any interest in this, they were making sexual advances. I was mortified as I thought they should be salibet.
In December whilst Dalai Lama was at Mahabodhi temple the monks were cornering people for money, as no phones are allowed there, I wasn't able to record' I myself was taken in a secluded place to hear about a homeless senior aged monk and met him; he hadn't bathed for days and his robes were smudged with body fluids' when I asked him, why his not able to use the facilities in the temple for bathing or sleeping. His responses had all political motives.
I deeply feel, saddened whilst also empowered to see, no other is better or worse then us' I do not have to feel, that I should feel good only when I give. I hope I make sense please. We should always share food where possible as no human should go hungry, and if we can't, I feel universe is wanting the body of that individual to be on a fasting state.
Thank you 🙏🏽