“Haha, Chinnu bro left Skool! Hehe, we can take the top spot on the leaderboard now,” — Rudaiba and Dan plotting “Ahh, excuse me? Is this the betrayal I get? Heh, so sad. But, you know, good luck with that. I doubt I’ll be around for long anyway, especially in December… Ahh, yeah, I need to stay safe here,” — Chinnu “Heh, whatever, you c***p,” — Rudaiba “Why am I here? Hello? What’s happening?” — Dan It has been so long since I last read a good book, and yes, it’s been over a month since I posted about books. I know, I’m sorry, but I just can’t manage it right now. I’ve already reached my limits with AP classes, and I have extracurriculars on top of that. Each blog post takes me 1 to 1.5 hours to write and another hour to find the best images. And that’s not even counting the time needed to read the book—which is just… ahh, NOOO. So yeah, my schedule is at its peak, and I can’t take on more. I was discussing this with my confidant about how we tend to neglect the things that make us happiest. For example, if you have a meeting at 5 PM but your best friend texts you to hang out, you might say no to your friend because you have a meeting. You decline your friend because they understand you and your situation better than someone you’re meeting online for the first time. Or let’s say you have plans with your friend at 8 PM, but someone from an internship asks if you can meet at the same time. You’d tell your friend you can’t make it but not the interviewer, because your friend understands and is flexible, while the interviewer doesn’t care as much. Similarly, I need to reduce my time writing blogs because I know you all understand the other commitments I have on my plate. As for what I’ve been up to, let’s focus on the highlights: I have a question for you: How much trust can you have in a person, and how much trust do you receive in return? Is it the kind of trust where you’d share any password imaginabe, Google, bank accounts, anything? Can it be so profound that they share every aspect of their life with you? So much that they seek your opinion and feel comfortable showing you any of their conversations?

Have you ever met someone online then started talking, understanding each other and establishing a level of contion that seems impossible to recreate? I mean, I certainly have, these people, sometimes, you get so connected to them that they practically become a part of you, it's like you two share the same mind just different bodies but is it really a good thing tho? Most people here in this community are very much active online and we make all these amazing friends so, today I decided to take a few moments to think about these relationships or maybe just a certain someone and I think it was such a nice talk with myself so, I wanna hear you guys, do you also think about these friends sometimes? If so, can I have a piece of your mind? Btw, I posted my thoughts on my newsletter (https://open.substack.com/pub/rudaiba/p/15-days-all-or-nothing?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=47zbbv) as well as a really nice question that might get you thinking. A hint; the question has to do with the title of this posts, you're welcome to make your guesses, be sure to check out the newsletter, give it a read and let me know what you think.

Hey everyone!!! It's been so long! How's everyone doing? So, I know you're gonna be like, the irony of this girl for talking about this community dying then leaving herself for so long but hear me out, this is not my fault, okay, my teachers make the finals routine, I don't. But I know everyone missed me (let's ignore the silence) so I'm back! But here's the thing, I realized that most of my posts are not necessarily about stem, these are things that all students might read or some of them may even relate to working people, so, I've decided to open my own newsletter on substack, yay! So, from now on, you can find me on both here and substack or if you wanna look at a more professional side, LinkedIn is always an option but, from now on, I'll try to write here then also post those things on my newsletter so more people can find them and maybe even shift some of my old posts to my newsletter but since it is a personal newsletter, I will be adding more personal experiences and such, these are posts you might not see me post on skool so, if you like reading my posts, be sure to check out my newsletter, I mean, it's still pretty blank since I just started but it's about to get really fun really quick so, better prepare by staying tooned. Anyways, thanks you so much for reaching this far, here's the link to my first newsletters where I covered my October shenanigans: https://open.substack.com/pub/rudaiba/p/the-more-you-fall-back-the-further?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=47zbbv

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Yesterday, this time, I was happy, thinking about everything I was gonna do for the day, it was a weekend after so long and I was really excited. And I wasn't wrong, I came from coaching, I saw him awake at like 2 am his time and we just started talking. "Just 5 more minutes" I said to him for the 100th time. We just kept talking for hours, I didn't even have breakfast, lunch or evening snacks but that was the least of my concern, I was just so happy to spend so much time togather. Fast forward to now, I woke up late with swollen eyes from crying all night and he won't even talk to me. He won't listen to me, he's just really not okay and I know it's my fault and the worst part is, I don't even know what to do. I just wish we could talk like we always do just 1 more time so I could tell him how much more it hurts me to see him that way than everything else in the past, I just wish he could come and say "Hey" with no context in the middle of me texting at midnight and then we could forget about sleep and everything we have the next day and just start talking again. I wish he could see what I would give to get him to be happy again, I wish he was here, beside me, just talking. I wish he'd eat M&Ms and save the red and browns for me. I don't know what to do if we part ways like this and it's my fault, I don't think I can ever forgive myself if that happens. Oh god, I just wanna cry to him and hope he'd magically solve all my problems.